God! I’m such an idiot. I should’ve never came here, the depression just shoves itself into the air but it does faze me. This is the best moment of my life! A day for celebration. People have been looking at me like I have nothing but he meant nothing to me. In fact, this is the best I’ve ever felt in a long time, a very long time. Those moments where I thought we had a glimpse, the smallest glimpse, of being something incredible dissipates when I think of the hell you put me through. The hell you put my family through…I will not let sadness cover my face from the truth, you deserve this. I can count the times you’ve broken me with the lines in your face. Dont you deserve this? The lines on the monitor finally went flat. I will always love you, dad.