If only

I was as good

As everything

I want to be,

But what I want to be

Just Can’t be.

It’s to good for me

I’m so painfully numb now.

The world is crumbling

My head is spinning

My heart is failing

I can’t do this

All they ever tell me is

Keep going

It will get better

Just take one more step

One more time

Keep moving forward.

But what if moving forward moves me back.

To where I fail.

Ultimately I’m worthless.

And I’ll keep failing you over and over again.

I’m sorry, though I gave up a long time ago.

You honestly need to accept it now.

It’s time for you to give up too…