I wish I had never let go.

I wish I had never told you I was fine.

How did I end up like this?

In my room pondering the question,

What would had happened if I never let you go.

What if I truly told you how I felt?

Would you have stayed,

perhaps with me.

Would you have looked me in the eyes and say,

‘I’m staying right here’?

I wish I had never let you go.

I was such a fool,

To act so cool.

Act as if I didn’t mind.

When I did.

I wish I had never let go.

Keep up like this and I will drown,

In the abyss that I had created in my head.

Drowning in my eternal regret.

This world is cruel,

Just as my love for you.

I wish I had never let go.

I wish I had never let go.

I lay in my room.

It looks dead.

Dead like me.

No motivation once so ever.

Laying in the bed,

Laying on the floor.

I don’t care where ever it is, it’s still dead.

Dead like the leaves from a tree in autumn.

Whispering trough the air on a dead autumn day.

Tissue on the floor,

Covered in tears.

Tears I have shed for you.

If I haven’t let you go would I be dead?

Would the world be in black in white?

Would I be sitting right now?

Sitting in a dead room, where I told you i was fine.

I’m not fine.

I’m not ok.

Why did I let you go?

I wish I had never let you go.

Perhaps If I hadn’t let go.

I wouldn’t be here In this room.

In this situation.

Perhaps if I hadn’t let you go,

I wouldn’t miss you?

I wouldn’t cry at the faint memory of you?

I wish I never let go.

I wish I had never let you go.