i knew all along that this is how it would end.

i knew that once you finally realized that i am not enough

that i am not as perfect as others

that i don't have the perfect hair or body or eyes or smile

i don't have paper white teeth or perfectly smooth skin

i knew that once you noticed all the things i hate about myself

you would hate me too

you would realize you can do so much better

your perfect, kind, tall, sweet, loving and caring.

but you cant love me.

because i love you too much

i cant be away from you

i feel sick to my stomach when I'm not with you

and you need space

you need freedom

you cant spend your life with someone who you don't love

because it will destroy me and then i will end up destroying you.

all along i knew you would find someone better

and you did.

someone confident, someone smart, someone beautiful.

someone whos not me.

they're nothing like me.

and that's what you love about them.

that's what i hate about me.