I wake up alone at night,

stomach dropping, breath halting.

Sweat drips, bones ache, eyes wide—

tears stream, unrelenting.

Splintered.

No more.

They don’t care anymore.

Their smiles faded long before

I became a shadow in their eyes—

a burden too heavy,

too broken to disguise.

No more.

Why can’t it be different?

Why can’t we rewind?

Why…

No more.

I starve myself on purpose,

thinking hunger might cleanse me.

I stay awake,

to remind myself

I’m nothing but a mistake.

Why…

I bite the hand that feeds me,

so maybe it'll let me starve

Spare them the urge to pretend—

spare them the weight

of loving someone

who only breaks.

No more.

It took too long to see—

a blade, a leap, a rope,

some poisoned clarity—

could unburden the family

I’ve cursed to carry me.

Why…