Big ones, small ones Colors in cobalt, azure, and navy One's that drown us and the ones that bring adrift to the shore Cali, Florida, Mexico a sudden allure Swimming with the sharks, like I do best Floating towards the sunset, removing my life vest Taking in a last gasp of air Allow myself to sink Drown away the despair

Glazed eyes looking in the wrong places, searching for my suffering in everyone else. All I had to do was dig deep, it was me all along, rotting my own heart and causing me to weep. But in all the turmoil felt through the years, and every curious thought about the strangers and their leers. It was me I hated most, not the one I held so close. I guess your wondering where’s the satisfaction in that? I asked myself too while all alone I sat. I gained the knowledge in knowing to hold those I love above all that exists because it is them that sticks by you and through all of life’s little twists. But if you deny them the loyalty and respect that is earned then it is you that is dealt the sad lesson to be learned. Contentment is knowing true love for all that it was worth, at least I have felt that before I leave this earth. To have those memories of a time that seemed to never be lost, it hurts like hell but at a once in a lifetime cost. I take back nothing and am forever grateful for the things you have taught me, you opened my eyes and gave me sight on everything I never again want to be. Thank you for your time and giving me your heart, I guess here’s to you and a fresh new start.

Him and her, connected in such an unalterable way that could never be broken.

Understood, something that never rarely described them.

Holding onto that gleefulness timelessness about them.

Mournful would forever be their love that was so rare.

For the first time ever, two not so determined souls separated by an annoyingly present force of nature:

They became something they never dreamed of becoming, soulmates bound to be reckoned with, never standing a chance to begin with.

She looked on as everyone went about there day, wishing she too knew what was heading her way. They all seemed to have opinions and judgements they weren’t to keen on....guessing she had been up all night, lurking the streets since dawn. But none quiete understood the pain she held within, the amount of love she ached for was whole heartedly a sin. Wanting it all for herself to fill the emptiness, a hollow chest. Scouring the City all night never nearing enough rest. She thought she hid so so well behind these masks we are forced to wear, but the truth shared she never would dare. So above the city she was high and just by one look at her all could tell this was no lie.

I come from somewhere I’m ashamed. I met him and thought that changed. To create a new story or so I thought. Words come cheap and easily bought. We grew together old like trees, plans of adventure and to one day travel over seas. Now that dream is dead inside, stay indoors I want to run and hide. Without you I just don’t have the strength to go on. You used me like I was nothing just a useless pawn. So fuck you and wherever you may be, your making the biggest mistake of your life you will someday see.