The body breaks But the soul is infinite potential The heart bleeds with pain But the soul flows with boundless love The brain tricks and fears But the soul speaks honestly and safely The eyes see good and evil But the soul sees everything as whole and faultless The body is not holding the soul But the soul holds the body in its immeasurable potential

Life is a montage Memories floating in and out Random words and carefully chosen songs bring colors then black.

Texas Sun Crawfish and Tears Turtle in a Dirty Bathroom Beer and FUCK in the church Brother snaps then takes a nap Stories and tight hugs Cigarettes and Coronas

I keep looking for you to ask questions like “where’s the bathroom and where’s the trash can and bottle opener?” I’m gasping for oxygen in the open air Why am I here? Because of You…here because you are NOT.

Red faced and shakey hands Breakfast that takes 3 hours Salt and pepper on avocados Acts of Service Acts of Love Genuine love for fur babies Unsolicited advice Funk Festivals And Metal Warm beer and acid Weirdest movies of ALL time Pacing the floors with hand filled pockets Thousands of selfies Canned heat and yard work High school stories galore Anxiety and Adulthood Cacti and Creepy Sculptures Leonard Cohen and Dread

Imperfect yet complete. Gentle yet passionate. Beautiful laughter with doubt.

There’s no way I could ever capture the essence of who you were. I am so fucking sad that you are gone but so indescribably happy you existed in my life at all. And despite the pain I hope this montage never ends.

I left a candle burning Maybe it will burn down to nothing Or maybe it will light a curtain ablaze Starting with the living room then creeping it’s way into our bed Lighting the sheets on fire Then our skin Seep into our veins Warming our blood until it bursts on the floor Melting the walls, collapsing the roof Breaking every object we thought was important Forcing us to start anew

My anxiety is a ghost A dead thing following me around, Poking my insides It taps the back of my skull, Seeping in my memories It makes me feel hot and heavy, then cold and small It’s quiet and roaring at the same time It reminds me that I’m alive with its pulses, then wishes me dead forever It says my name then grasps my throat It advises me of its presence while making me feel so alone I hope one day it will cross to the other side But for now I’ll hold my breath, cross my heart and greet it with a good morning

Feeling everything is hard Tiring and painful Don’t let them make you feel bad about your sensitive soul It’s just another thing for you to carry Let them be annoyed by how much you feel They would crumble without your empathy They would feel so alone and scared without your presence Grabbing their every vibration

Whatever you do Go through it Swim through it Skip through it Stroll through it Run through it Claw through it Crawl through it Whatever you do Don’t You Dare Sink through it Because the only way out Is through it

I fucking hate you I don’t know what to do You make me crazy What can I say that’s true

Resentment builds Like a volcano about to erupt I will push it down Deep deep and shut it up

First comes love, then marriage No white horse, no carriage Forgiveness lies deep within Right there, With the lies, and the sin

Hard and fast Euphoric and frightening Your love is like an arrow … laced with poison Thrilling and dangerous Certain and confusing Your love is like an arrow … laced with poison Forever changed and forever the same Grey but never black Shot in the brain and dripping with false pleasure Your love is like an arrow … laced with poison Lust and power, not love at all Your lust is like an arrow … laced with affliction