The date was the 13th of July, 2017. I was working on my essay for my English class when I heard a loud thump outside my window. At first, I was too scared to see what it was. I didn’t know what to do since I was home alone, so I called my friend. She answered quickly and said.
“Hey what’s up? Why are you calling so late?” I checked the time and it was currently midnight on the dot. I shook my head as I tried to check again as if it was the wrong time.
“I remembered the time being 5:24 pm?” I said over the phone in confusion. This can’t be right. “Dylan said he would be at the house by 6:30 so I was too focused on my essay for English that I didn't check the time. But then if it's midnight why isn't Dylan home?”
I remembered my brother saying he was convinced that someone was following him before he was gone missing but nobody believed him. I shook that thought out of my head thinking I was crazy for making up scenarios in my head. But I would never think something happened to my brother. It was always us too together. We were inseparable. I never thought my brother would be gone. Away from me. Somewhere I'm not. He would always tell us how he felt alone and mistreated.
“Sara, Sara, Sara!” My friend screamed trying to get my attention. “Hey let me go check something out. I’ll call you back I promise.” I said more calmly. I didn’t know what to do so I agreed on going outside the front door to check. I looked around to see what happened but nothing was there. As I turned around to enter my house, I saw a piece of clothing from the corner of my eye. I walked closer to it and my surprise it was a piece of clothing my brother owns. I remembered it because he is wearing that piece of clothing at the moment. I quickly ran inside to call my brother. He said he was going out to play soccer with some of his friends but never said anything other than calling me later. It was weird he mention that. He’d never wanted anyone to disrupt him as he was playing with his friends unless it was for emergencies only. “Pick up, Pick up,” I said desperately for him to answer. It rang four times and still no answer. Now I was getting worried. As I tried to contact him thousands of times I heard someone knocking at the door. As I opened the door I was terrified to open.
“Hello, ma’am are you Dylan’s sister?” An officer said as I tried to process what is going on. I took a while to answer a simple question. To many things were going on my head. Why is there police men standing infront of my door asking about my brother? What happened to Dylan to make the police come to our home at this time? and Why?
“Yes I am his sister. Why do you ask? I say with concern. “I am sorry to inform you but..” is all the officer said and stopped talking as if he didn't want to finish the sentence. “But what officer?” is all I could say but something inside of me knew where this was already going and it was not a good thing.
“Your brother Dylan...has passed away.” the officer said with a frown. I stood still in place processing what the officer just said. “I’ll head out so you can have your space, I’m sorry for your loss ma'am.” the officer said as he left my presence. At that moment I could not believe what I just heard and out of nowhere I started to feel dizzy as if a part of me has died. I no longer wanted to live, not if my brother isn't here. And just like that, I saw nothing more. it's as if they turned the lights off at night. Cold and dark.
I wake up one day with no memory to be found I look down and see blood all around
All I can do is hope for the best But as I look around its just emptiness, And darkness and I start to get stressed
As I walk around trying to escape. I end up in the same place
I recognize a familiar face
He is holding a rose, a red rose for that matter
But as I get closer it would start to glow
But it's not just an ordinary glow bright and white as snow
I start walking closer trying to see his face And all I can think about is “is that chase?”
Today is the day. Today is the day when I will come through and defeat you at once. You have been a part of me since I can remember, but today you will be gone for good. All those days when you appeared out of the blue to terrify me in front of my friends and family but that has come to an end. You have always stopped me from doing certain activities with my friends so I will enjoy today without you in my presence. Today is going to be a big part of my life and overall a great day. Bye-bye fear of heights, so long...
Dear soulmate,
I wake up every day to check my phone to see your text. I would smile like an idiot as I read through your paragraph about how much I meant to you. I would respond with a Thank you and a heart on the side. Never had the guts to say I love you so I would just let it slide and wait for a chance to say it in person. I would remember how we would talk over the phone about the day we would see each other, but we never got the chance to set a date. I would pray every night that someday I would see your face and hug you as tight as I could but I knew that wouldn’t happened.
One day after a few months I was busy to text anyone. When I could I would check my phone to see if you would text me but nothing showed. I started to think that maybe you were busy as well but that changed after a few days. I knew something was off when you called me one night to talk about us. I was so afraid to talk to you because I knew you might’ve changed your mind about us too.
You told me you needed space for at least a couple of weeks but I thought that only meant like you had stuff going on in your family. Then you stopped texting or calling me back so I would just leave you alone. I always wondered what might’ve happened to make you stop answering my calls out of the blue. After you stopped showing effort I decided to just give up. I wanted to see if you would be the first to text back but it never happened. A few weeks later i got a notification from my friend. It said that you were with some other girl. At first i thought it was just someone close to you or at least you were just doing something nice but later that day it made it worse. That was your girlfriend.
At first i knew it wasn’t right to be angry but then i thought for a long time and i came to a conclusion. I should be angry and upset, and even disappointed in myself. Those emotions were towards me not you. After that happened I decided to just move on cause what’s the point. Just wanted you to know that i really thought we had something going on at the moment but i guess its alright to just forget about me, i mean thats what you did am i right?
But I forgive you because i know after this i will become a better person and i have learned my lesson and i thank you for that so in that case i forgive you.
Love,
B.M. <3