it was a small place nothing really to do there was really only space to go grab some food

everyone knew one another “ hell you might have seen my brother. “

it’s place with grace maybe not to you but for the ones born and raised it’s a dream come true.

i am bored. i don’t know what to do? the memories are instored the good and bad are true

what do i say? with my emotions on delay

with decisions i am torn
the words sticking like glue the feelings we would morn, if i actually went through

i will not stay and play, i will love you til’ the end of my days.

the trees were losing leaves the weather was just right even at night it was a season to make you sneeze pollen carried by a breeze don’t let the early darkness give you a fright whatever you say the wind will write all the currents come in threes

short sleeve or long neither would be wrong “let’s get the long”

it could be cold it could be warm either way, nothing is torn this weather is here by sworn

i finally had it money to spend on me but it became a habit when i spent is uselessly

i loved having bills they made me feel happy but i started buying pills the burden became uncanny

i went the wrong way i didn’t know how to handle the price i had to pay i went and started to gamble

the popping cost me my job i had no more money to spend i was no longer a nob and i soon met my end.

‘twas not known to each there own their mouths are sown they have no tone

what would they speak if their lips were a peak please don’t let it leak they can’t hear a peep

i don’t want them to hear i’m afraid they might fear out of the clear they will disappear

though still you spoke the truth be awoke it was no joke now out with a spoke

run, run, run is all i ever do

“wait, wait, wait let me come too.”

“no, no, no” i tell him from a far.

but now that i think about it, maybe i’m his star.

it was the big day there was no time to play

things had to be just right no putting up with fights

the two words i’d been waiting to say and to hear them back i pray

as i walked he saw me in his sight there were no tears, not even a slight

my heart began to sink all the way. why would he ruin what was supposed to be our perfect day.

the whole evening was going right for everyone but me and my might

the words were soon to be lay but when any objections were called, my husband called out “i’m gay”.

i choose to close my eyes, trying to shut out the lies

i want to stay asleep that way i don’t hear a peep

it’s like an almost death, though you still hear my breath

when my eyelids rise open, all of the words are spoken

why can’t it always be quiet and all fine instead of only when i am passing the time.

i know you are there but where, oh where please don’t be scared for i am aware

you watch me with your eyes i give in with my sighs please show me your face there is no need to hide.

“who are you” i speak still i don’t hear a peep whatever you may find you are free to keep

though it is my mind it’s still hard to grind the words i want to deliver are built up in a shrine

tensions have risen i am none other than a vision please let me see you we’re both on a mission.

words cannot express the sorrow that i feel no matter how much therapy, this wound will never heal

you left and now i don’t know what to do please come back, don’t let the world take you

i sit in my room almost unconsciously watching the walls i have nothing now without your late night calls

i miss you everyday and that isn’t hard to say every night on my knees, to god i pray.

i pray for him to bring you back home be fate not in my hands so for now shalom.