ellbell

ellbell

usually I just write down the first thing that comes to mind so please don’t expect some well thought out poetry or stories

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Ignore My Absence And Instead Read My Poem

I’m mortified by you

Darling

You made me hurt

And everyone saw

Emotions

I try to keep so

Hidden

From this frosty world

Yet if you said the world

I’d let you

Mortify me over and over again

Until finally you get sick of my beaten and crippled soul

Because Darling

I adore you...

frost

i can’t help but love the frost

which is funny

because I used to resent it

but you made me think about it

and now all I see

Is the beautiful patterns that can be found

in frost

but really

how was I supposed to hate something

you loved so vibrantly...

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you’re kidding, right?

the stars blinking from their daylight sleep

we sit

strawberries and giddiness on our tongues

so many dreams were acted upon

that night

for the half a dozen teens

sitting on their little stage, their little world

it was all becoming real...

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All My Moments Feel Like This But Ok

human connection

is something i crave

yet when I get it I can’t help but wonder

Just how long it’ll last

how many moments can I milk from this late night of speaking our truths?

when will I look back and realize

that it was months ago

when will I realize the adrenaline of speeding down a city street has faded

when will I realize that I’m all alone in our home town

friend...

Can You Keep My Secret

i lay awake at night


wondering


if im on your mind


like you’re on mine


do you long for me?


I hope you do...

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I Haven’t Reread This/Did Any Edits So It Probably Doesn’t Flow

who are you to make me feel this way

you’re no one

just a boy

yet you clear my head

make living have a worth

you my boy

who are you to make me blush

who are you to occupy my brain

giving me a rush of serotonin

you my boy

are addicting

and im quickly becoming reliant



who are you

boy

to make me cry

make my heart ache

force well hidden feelings to the surface

who are you

not my boy

not an...

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we never needed words

Oh my love


I crave our silence


To understand someone


like I understood you


Just a breath and I’d know


I wish we still had our

comfort

that we once knew


oh my love


I grieve for us...

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this doesn’t fit exactly but shh its my profile and i wanted to

Valens wasn’t sure who exactly suggested the overnight backpacking trip but he wants to kill them.


A group of kids had gotten it into their stupid little heads that hiking three miles up into a mountain would be fun. And somehow, Valens got roped into going along.


This trip represents everything that Valens hates, hiking, bugs, being cold, wearing unfashionable- “practical” -clothing, eating d...

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i lost you

i used to love you

now you live where the maple grow

and perhaps that is why

I only feel affection

and not love

in my pine palace

the distance hasn’t made us less close

just forced my feelings to water down

now it’s not acid

my love is soda pop

never has being your friend felt this painless

you in your maple grove, me in my pine forest

never has loving you felt this calm...

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this is sad

“That was the worst assassination attempt I’ve seen”


“I couldn’t bring myself to die”


They smile bitterly at each other, those words meaning more to the pair than they could ever speak aloud....

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