It took me 6 years to decide what school I would go to. Which friends I would leave. And which colors suited me most. I had always thought I would be a Hornet. All my friends were going there, so why wouldn’t I. But every time I thought about it, it didn’t seem right. The other school intrigued me. It called me. I always found an excuse to keep it on my mind. But when somebody were to ask me ...
The world is filled with reasons
to make you want to leave
It likes to make you feel worthless
Like your a failure
Like your not worth it
Like you shouldn’t have been born
I thought I was safe
Until I landed in a new home
With new people
And new trusts
And now I’ve fallen to the devil called the world
So my advice for you…
Be careful out there...
The metal blade
Sharp on my skin
The pain
So exhilarating
I’ve always been afraid to do this
But now…
I don’t care
The heat is satisfying all my deeper pains
By bringing them to the surface
The agony of the cuts
Encompasses the pains from below
I love the look of the blood
The “battle scars”
That nobody is allowed to see
Except me
Like
I know this is wrong
But the feeling and the urge
I nee...
Overthinking is my specialty
At night
When the world falls asleep
I sit and think
About everything that went wrong
About the things I said
Or didn’t say
Or the things I did
Or didn’t do
The problems that have no solution
And the differences things would make
If I could just build up enough confidence
To talk to her
I know I can’t do anything about it now
It’s too late
There’s no going bac...
It’s times like these when I miss you the most
When I miss your hug, your smile, your positive attitude
The one thing that was guarenteed to cheer me up when I was having a bad day
I miss having lunch with you
And hearing your laugh from across the room
And I miss meeting you in the hall
Just to get your great big hugs
I miss seeing you in the morning
Crowded around our favorite teachers class...
Although most don’t like the mildew musty scent of an unfinished basement. That smell brings me home. To my grandmas basement with the steel shelves and the random pink shower in the back corner. And my playspace on the right of the very steep staircase that always gave my family a mini heart attack when I ran down it. I spent most of my summers down there playing cashier with my grandmas endless ...
The war between anger and sadness
Combined to make the perfect shade
But still
Fierce on their own
Anger
Bright with heat
Blistering red and ready to fight
Sadness
The royal blue
So calm and perfect from the outside
But alone, deep down
Together the two could make a perfect pair
With the perfect amount of heat and cool
But still the war rages on...
I stare at you
Longing for you to notice
Waiting for the day when you realize
That we are meant to be
My mind filled with thoughts of you
Hoping yours are filled with me
Even though I know they aren’t
99.9%
That’s how much I’m sure
But that .1% keeps me going
Keeps me longing for you
It keeps me up at night
Running scenarios through my brain
And makes my heart race when I hear my phone din...
