Ash

(She/Her/Hers) My name is Ash. I love to write. I struggle with Tourettes, Depression, Anxiety, ADHD, and SH so most of my poems include things involving those topics. I’m bi/pansexual. I hope you enjoy my pieces. Please follow!!🩷

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Dear…

Ash

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If you could only know how happy I was to see you today. I had been waiting for this day since you told me you were going back to school. The day that I would finally be able to see you again. When you left that day broke me. You were cool and interesting and new to me. Like a difficult puzzle that you don’t know anything about but it still drags you to solving it. I wanted to connect and learn mo...

Just Be You

Ash

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Advice for the insecure

Be you

Call out to the world

“Differences are ok”

Especially when you

Follow your heart

Go for your dream

Help other people

Inspire

Just reach for the stars

Know your not alone

Let them say what they want to say

Many don’t understand

Never stop educating

Open up

Perservere

Quit hiding

Run out and

Say

“This is me”

Understand that there’s nothing you can do to change the...

Clash Against Meaning

Ash

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I noticed you from a distance

I never thought much

But now

Up close

Your kinda cute

Your cheeks all rosy

Your hair cut short

Your cute laugh

I know your a bit older

But I can’t get you off my mind

And it might just be a friend crush thing

Or it might be more

I don’t really want it to be more

But the flutters decide otherwise

So I’ll just have to see where it leads...

Romance

Surviving The Trial

Ash

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How it came to this

I don’t really know

But sitting in the accused

Is my depression monster

He used to be so small

And quiet

Only as small and innocent

As a toddler

Now he towers over everyone

Yelling and screaming

And not letting anyone or anything

Come through

Never would I have thought

He would get this bad

This

But here he is

Tied to the chair

Screaming at me to die

...

Poetry

☁️Clouds☁️

Ash

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How would it feel to live in the clouds?

With the sky so blue

And the clouds so full of bloom

Like cotton candy

I’d jump around from cloud to cloud

Bouncing on a magical trampoline

Avoiding the pockets that open towards the sun

And then I’d lay in the endless heaps of puff

Letting myself sink into sweet pillowy dreams

It’s feel like heaven

A paradise

The calm in a world filled with chaos

It’...

Poetry

My Notebook

Ash

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There’s too many ideas spiraling in my brain

I can’t decide where to put them

Do I put them in a book?

In a poem?

A letter?

Or a song?

What do I want to portray?

What do I want others to hear?

Cause putting my ideas somewhere

Let’s myself come free

So, what do I say next?...

Poetry

I Forgive You, Kinda

Ash

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Forgiveness

One of the hardest things to do

Especially when you know

The other was in the wrong

I don’t know if I will ever

Be able to forgive you for

What happened in the past

Don’t worry, I’ve tried

But maybe looking at the positives

The good outcomes from you

Maybe that would help…

Let’s see

Without you

I never would’ve gone to devils

Without you

I never would’ve reconnected with...

Poetry

The Power Of Yet

Ash

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Yet

Such a small word

But it possesses so much meaning

It can change the entire perspective

Shift it from impossible

To something just within reach

By changing it

It gives this sense of motivation

A sense of resilience

I can’t do this

Yet

I’m not better

Yet

I can reach my goal

Not today

Not tomorrow

But with the power of yet

I know I can...

Poetry

If Only

Ash

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If only it wasn’t so rejected

So rejected from society

Apparently it’s not normal

But also

What is?

I wish I could by my true self

Around my parents, family, friends

So I don’t have to hide

And have this secret

This forbidden secret

That I would be disowned if she knew

So what if I’m bisexual

So what if it’s weird

It’s me

What’s the problem with that?

You’re right

There is none

But if she knew...

Poetry

Let Me Back. Please?

Ash

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I miss the times when my thoughts were overthrown

With thoughts of her

Not with thoughts of wanting to be dead

She would take over my brain for hours

With scenarios

Dreams

Hopes

Wishes

Now instead of her my thoughts are with suicide

Life

Death

Blade

I wish I could go back

To my sane mind

I need to go back

Please?...

Poetry