I was walking in a field hopeless and broken, my life had no color. I kept praying for closer but it never came until it hit me, happiness comes within. It’s no magical awaking , it’s your heart. My heart finally poured purple and happiness like a storm in April. There I was, in a field once a lost soul, now full of hope, spirit, and love. I’m me again.
I told myself I wouldn’t live past sixteen, I felt as if I was a puppet in this world without the strings.
I told myself “ no one will love you “ until I believed it when I was staring at my ceiling at two in the morning.
I told myself I’d never lead up to anything at all crying in my bathroom floor. Then I realized, this is the worlds stage, you have two choices. Be an actor who plays the part or be a writer who tells the story
Are you ready? This is the worlds stage. What are you going to be?
It’s 3 am and I’m at home while you’re there sound asleep.
It’s 3 am and the only time I can be asleep is when you’re on the phone because the absence of you laying on my chest keeps me awake.
It’s 3 am and the only thing that keeps us together is the moon and the sun so here I am watching the moon and the stars thinking about the nights you were looking at it too.
It’s 3 am and it breaks me to hear the crack in your voice when you say “ I miss you “.
It’s 3 am and I keep imagining your hand in mine but the only thing I can feel is my heart in my stomach.
It’s 3 am and I’m counting down the hours until you wake up so the distance isn’t as lonely
The 3 am and I’m at home and you’re sound asleep.
“It’s just a village” they tell me. They don’t know about the laughs and adventures growing up that this village has seen. They don’t know about the storms and heartache this place has been through.
It’s just a village, but do you know about the old man you always seen working seven days a week for the small family’s to get what they need at the corner store? It’s just a village but, do you know about how all these beautiful people came together as one just to feel less alone when the government tried to take all we had away?
It may just be a village to you, but this is home to me.
