In my dream I was outdoors

My whole family was there

All my friends

The sun shining on our faces

Our bodies strong.

In my dream the song

Of the birds was the loudest of all

It was all we could hear

And so we joined in

The sky was so blue, carribean

The sun was a lemon jolt that

Left little marks in my vision

Remaining when I closed my eyes;

My own personal sunlight

In my dream we all held one...

I feel so pathetic remembering those days.

How easily I was convinced; manipulated

How good things seemed; felt

When you wear rose-tinted glasses

All the red flags just look like flags

But then, how often do I see flags?

I should have still taken note

Regardless of hue

I acted miserably, seduced by a promise

A promise I always knew would be broken

But hungrily, I played along.

Until the day I br...

I had visited her every day

For the past ten years

And yet she never got to know me any better

Nor I, her.

I would sit and talk to her for hours,

Under an umbrella in the rain

Bundled up in coats and scarves in the snow

Doused in sunscreen all summer long.

But she never changed.

She sat there and endured the changing seasons

And the harsh winds

With stone-faced resolve, motionless.

Today I say ...