You’re the first one
And the only one so far
To text
“Happy birthday!!!🎉”……
My mom says I should date
Based on personality
And that’s true
But I’m sorry I don’t feel that way.
You talk to me and I love it
You make me smile
But I’m a teenage girl
Should I like you?
Should I date you?
Is that how it goes?
I’m so thankful for you
But I don’t know what to do.
The happy birthday meant a lot
B...
I didn’t do anything.
I did what you asked
But you yell at me
With that face
That face
That makes me scared.
I thought you were going to hit me.
Hit
Me.
I’m a teenager
I shouldn’t be afraid of that.
You’re my dad
You shouldn’t be making me feel unsafe.
I’m shaking
Crying
Panicking
In my room
There’s no way I can do this anymore
I’m waiting for you to hit me
So I can call my friend
T...
From now on,
When I wear shorts
Or a bathing suit
I will take markers
And trace my stretch marks
For they are in nature
And nature is not ashamed.
(The clouds stretch too)
From now on,
When I wear a cropped top,
I will be proud of myself and show me
Letting little girls know
They are beautiful
And nature is not ashamed.
(Rolls in the sand too)
From now on,
If I want to cover my marks
Or ...
There’s a girl
Standing in the mirror
Feeling inferior
She’s only eight.
There’s a girl
She looks familiar
Trying to smile to feel better
She doesn’t look like she ate.
Oh she just wants to feel
Beautiful
Oh she’s stuck in the field
Of reality
It isn’t like it seems
The girls you see on magazines....
This year
You aren’t even on my list
Though I wish you were.
I don’t have someone to replace you
But you did for me.
This year
I listen to music and somehow
Every word is about you…
This year
I miss you
Because I’m not with you.
This year
I regret not kissing you.
Not calling you mine.
Not fixing myself to be what you wanted.
This year
You haven’t talked to me at all.
I remember you...
It’s crazy.
Last year
I knew you’d be my best friend forever.
Now?
I don’t know what went wrong.
Last year
i invitied you over
To celebrate my birthday first.
You deserved to be the first to come.
Last year
I didn’t miss you
Because you were by my side.
Last year
You said we’d be friends forever
Through high school and all.
Last year…
I believed it....
“When you spend so long trapped in darkness…you find that the darkness begins to stare back.”
I’m hidden in it all.
Covered
Head
To
Toes
In darkness.
I can’t find comfort
In any place else
It’s become to familiar to me
Now…
Now it’s comforting.
I’m not afraid
Not anymore
It shares the same traits
That I have.
Darkness.
You sweet sweet peace
You bring me home.
To a place I can cry and f...
I’m trying my best.
I’m trying my best.
I’m always there for you
And I love to help people.
Though, sometimes
Being the therapist drains me.
My brain screams
“Fix me! Focus on me”
And it’s hard
Because I can’t let anyone down.
I’m trying my best
I swear
But please
I need to focus on me too.
I’m not selfish
I swear....