(not a story) You said you were there for me Now I see what you really meant a second choice i've always been And you chose her

You left me when I was vulnerable but shedding tears is not an option I feel nothing Nothing Nothing

It took me forever to write this or so forever it felt long enough for me to find another who isn't so perfect but is perfect to me

I Love You are the words he says to me and It's okay is what he assures me to my never ending apologizing

To my fear of being left To my fear of people To my fear of feeling nothing

I have been relieved of such stress Told that it was me who held such choices and me who could finally be

The zoo the animals the funny fish expanding fish puffer fish was it? I never see the two of you in the same room Just joking...

But I had never gone to the zoo with a friend or someone even more than a friend Never allowed to until now

You apologize for your siblings but they're just siblings young and a little special

I love you And with a meaning I had not known mere months before

I may sound like a teenager trying to find the meaning behind somethings I cannot seem to name

But just venting I will be Criticizing another fear but I have no care in what used to control me

You lit my heart afire a never ending flame with a marvelous glow and its not just for show

My smile when i see you is genuine and true and even that terrible haircut that your mom chose You're my everything through and through

Your greenish blue eyes dirty blonde hair and that ticklish feeling deep in my stomach that you give me is real

its all real you asked me to be your one and only you joke with me about everything and you show me what its like to not be the second choice

to my everything my one and only you don't understand the feeling i get when you say you couldn't live without me because i have always been last not the first option now i'm your choice and you make me filled with glee

I would be anything for you Anything in the world a cat a dog a bat a hog anything just for you

But there are some limitations to what i can be a table is a no can do inanimate objects are just not for you

Maybe a cow would fit right in although with 4 stomachs that would be a sin greed would it be or maybe gluttony for me

Into what i should turn is leaving me baffled would you like to decide just don't go wild i am quite frazzled

good luck good night don't be in fright i am just a normal sight into anything I can turn don't be in concern

There's nothing to hear maybe your own fear Its but with little doubt you'll want to shout to get away from your mind and the whispers that follow behind but they're not what you should dread that's in your own head so listen closely you'll find it unholy the voices are here they're oh so near but if you can hear me don't you flee help is coming just wait for the humming the silence is quieter now so just give me your vow to never dread the unknown and in that you have grown