Jovie Layne
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Jovie Layne
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Earthquakes no longer feel foreign to my body My mind is racing and my ego is gaudy
Hurricanes no longer cause shivers down my spine Everything they are is everything that is mine
Tornadoes no longer can blow my life over My body stands fast as the grass and the clover
Thunder no longer scares me at night The sounds from above are the sounds in my mind
Forever no longer sounds like sure death It’s not enough time to use up all my breath
This emotion no longer holds all the power For I know that it may be gone in an hour
I listen and watch The words begin to fall Out of Grandpa’s mouth He breaks down the walls The wisdom he shares Moves mountains in me These burdens I can’t bear Like he can really see He says we become good At what we practice day by day I share it with my students And they take it as they may These roots run deep The lessons antique Listening to the wise Leaves us so much to keep When they’re gone that’s it Nothing left but memories I want to hold and document Each word my elders speak
Time had never passed so slowly Time went by, kept me weeping lowly Stuck in the mundane Stuck forever won’t keep me sane
Time had never passed so slowly Each moment I could feel my soul bleed Stuck in life’s long line Have I ever felt fine?
Time had never passed so slowly Time kept ticking and left me lonely Stuck without hope Stuck going down slope
Time had never passed so slowly I left the church not feeling holy Stuck in a rut All life’s doors shut
Time had never passed so slowly Time was there but wouldn’t hold me Stuck on my own Stuck with nine broken bones
Time had never passed so slowly Finally it spoke and told me Stuck am I Please pay me no mind
Time had never passed so quickly Time no longer felt so prickly Stuck no more I began to soar.
There is this feeling that haunts a soul It is the feeling of being Of growing too old
This feeling is in me, I feel it sometimes It haunts me at day But mostly at night
What I wasn’t expecting is how I would feel When another person told me This feeling is real
This feeling is one of sorrow and pain It makes you feel Your life is of shame
Life comes with a burden A burden unwelcomed Let’s just pray that it doesn’t worsen
It seems as though some Feel this feeling intensely Makes us want to give up, makes us want to run
My husband has said that he feels it too It makes me feel awful What can I do?
We are all just here By chance perhaps Within ourselves, we all must leer
But after this life Who knows what’s in store I only hope it isn’t more strife
So I hold on to hope It’s all that we’ve got This is our truth, one we must scope
You never truly saw me For who I was alone You only had a picture Of a life and love and home You placed me in that picture As a caring submissive wife Not knowing I would leave you And cause you all that strife You never truly knew me A soul not hard to learn I asked you simple questions And it’s like you never heard I really thought I loved you But the truth always comes out You only had one soul in mind Yourself, what I found out Now that’s all behind us You finally moved on And for that I am thankful So glad that you’re gone
I told you, but I’m not sure. How did you take it? How was it heard? I told you, but it haunts me still. What were you thinking? Did it take you for thrill? I told you, but I wonder. Do you see me the same? Did I commit a blunder? I told you, but I fear. Will you tell others? My heart, did you hear? I told you, but I can’t know. Do I truly trust you? Will you let my truth show? I told you, but that is okay. I followed my judgment. I must live for today. I told you, and I will move on. Trust what I’ve done. Until my secret is gone.
Stay gentle Don’t get so tough
Stay gentle Though life can be rough
Stay gentle The world is so cruel
Stay gentle Let love be your fuel
Stay gentle Our system is mean
Stay gentle Like the grass is green
Stay gentle Be a safe place for others
Stay gentle Show care like a mother
Stay gentle The world knocks us down
Stay gentle Keep your heart sound
Stay gentle Not everyone can
Stay gentle Be the refuge of man
Now that you don’t have to be perfect, you can be good. Live your life and enjoy it, the way God said you should.
It sounds so easy, when you say it like that. But what I can’t get over, is all this excess fat.
My brain won’t let me enjoy this life. There’s a constant reminder of pain and of strife.
I try my best, to get out of my comfort zone. But my brain keeps saying I need to stay home.
I go to my doctor, try and help myself. I feel I’ve worked hard but attained no wealth.
I listen to others, hear what they have to say. Especially the ones who experience the same.
It’s clear to me that their journeys have been long. The older ones who I thought were so strong.
We all have these struggles and we all have our doubts. We must lean on each other, we won’t make it without.
My story’s not over, it’s barely begun. I need to learn that it’s okay to have fun.
Life is not constant, of this I am sure. It’s something that changes, a question to endure.
So I’ll embrace the absurd and look for my purpose. Take care of my brain and look good on the surface.
My life will continue so that one day, I can say that I made it, though I struggled on the way.