Alone, he stepped into this new world.
He thought it would be brighter, more... more? More standing on the clouds, more angels and such. But he saw nothing. Under his feet was nothing but white. Four white walls surrounded him, visible by light that seems to come from nowhere. He can see no one. He can’t taste anything, smell anything. Four of his five senses are perplexed at this nothingness. However, his hearing is an exception. The music is soft but it’s growing louder. Then, the chorus. The beats rocket off the walls. The white walls explode in colour with every beat. He wasn’t in heaven, he thought, he was in his own head. And his headphones were turned up loud.
My eyes slowly pry open to find light flooding my room. I can’t think straight. I manage to gather the energy to turn my head to my left. The bloody scissors still lay by my head. I guess I’m still alive. DAMMIT. I’m such a failure that I can’t even manage to kill myself... why the hell did I put the blade through my stomach instead of my head?! The pain coming from my stomach is worse than I could ever imagine. “I JUST WANT TO DIE!!! KILL ME NOW!! PLEASE JUST TAKE ME FROM THIS WORLD!!” My thoughts explode from my head and the words hang heavily in the air before fading away, lost in a world unknown to us. My screams somehow overwhelm the searing pain. The people beside the apartment next to me would soon be rushing to check if I was ok. Oh god they have a baby! I’m going to wake up the baby!! Oh god how could I be so selfish?! I’m going to wake up the baby and his parents and they are all going to have a bad day because of me. “IM SUCH A BAD PERSON!!! SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH ME! I DONT DESERVE THIS WORLD!” Tears well in my eyes. The hole in my stomach doesn’t hold a candle to the hole in my heart. And with that, I manage to stand up. I must be on adrenaline. Good. That means I can get to the kitchen and the knives. One foot in front of the other. I can do it. I’m doing it! I’m in the hallway. Almost to the main room, then the kitchen. But then the high turns to low. I stop. I stumble. I fall. The floor comes at me fast. BANG. I’m dead. And now I look down at myself, my screams still heavy in the air. I won’t be a nuisance to anyone else now. The pain still lingers, but that’s ok. That’s all I wanted anyway. :)
You left me here House filled with fear Separated by a wall of tears
What will I do I Can’t afford food Can’t always Wear torn shoes
BUT YOU DONT EVEN CARE! It’s just not fair Can’t afford to share New things are rare
The person I loved Was stolen away And replaced by you Will never see you again
This child needs love But I’m the only one around Have to act like nothings wrong Believe me it’s hard.
Well I will be the strongest that he ever knew I will be there when he needs a love strong enough Because you are so careless
How do I teach a child love When I’m still learning it myself I’ll have to be strong And we’ll leave you alone.
Another day Another strays Towards the sun Pushing away
They climb the stairs White and fair Go up in life The steps are shared
The ones who fall Their faces glum Either ignored Or trying to run
Some are carried towards the sky Some are dragged to their demise
The happy are going up The upset step down It’s all very simple In this part of town
I like to sit Rest on one step I watch strangers pass Watch the sun set
The air rids of light And the sun slips away Small white dots replace The people I watched yesterday
Now the staircase is bare Everyone’s gone Except for the girl Who never played along
While there may be bravery in your eyes, the secret to success lie in the depths of your souls. You were terrified as I. Petrified, knowing you may have been kissing your children goodbye. Scared, thinking your heart beat it’s last. But all of you stand today; you stand a bit taller because you know that you are capable of surviving not only life’s small hurdles, but also life’s toughest challenge. Congratulations. You’ve defeated your demons.
She’ll make you smile She’ll make you laugh About her I could write a never ending paragraph
She’s the greatest friend She is the latest trend She will never turn her back
Don’t underestimate ‘cause she’s pretty strong Do not disagree ‘cause she’s never wrong With her by my side I will never be shy She is one of the few that hates to see me cry
She gets my through fire I get her through rain She always somehow eases the pain
Her eyes are made out of emerald and gold We were friends since 7 still will be when we’re old
Life without you isn’t a life worth living I’m not sure how you haven’t stopped giving Her eyes shine the brightest out of all of the stars I’m not sure if you know, but you’re perfect the way you are.
Her beauty will make you a little bit dizzy Because, hey, I’m speaking of a girl named Lizzy.
It’s a blessing to be blind. For even though I may never see the setting sun, I will see much more than others. Fashion will never be a word in my vocabulary But beauty always will be with me I cannot see height or race Wrinkles or scars I only see personality And that my friend, is true beauty You cannot be evil and pretty You cannot be generous and ugly So, do not show your evil side to a blind fellow For your face will not make up for your lies.
