This isn’t what what I planned,
That’s not where I wanted to be.
Theoretically I should be a lot of things.
Thriving and not barely surviving.
Trying and not feeling like dying.
Tricking my family, friends, and enemies, not
Treating myself to something so much better.
This will be different.
Time is finally on my side.
Tracking my progress, I
Try to get better.
Training daily,
Tracing the rules ...