that’s when it hit her, she was dreaming these people around her, weren’t real, they didn’t even know her. but then why for those few moments she was with them did she more at home then she ever did in real life
(honestly i have no idea exactly what this is a poem sorry honestly no clue but what’s in my head is in my head)
I was to be sacrificed tonight that was what fate had chosen. I was ready and although it was difficult i accepted it. As i walked toward the dais all the good memories came back i didn’t want to continue walking but i knew i couldn’t let them suffer so i continued. His beautiful eyes looked into mine the look of anger he gave me reminded me that he didn’t want this either,but our fate had been sealed and there was nothing we could do to change it. So as his blade cut into my heart i prayed that however excruciatingly painful it felt my fate was complete and it wasn’t a simple mistake but as i was closing my eyes a final time the sight i saw before them made me think otherwise…
I am lost. Utterly and helplessly lost. I had gone on an epic quest with my comrades and they had left me to die. By now i had memorized the way of the uneven land and after wandering aimlessly through the land i had come to the same conclusion as before, i was lost and no one was going to save me from my impending death.
“ALEX! ALEX! DONT DO THIS! IF YOU DO THIS THERES NO GOING BACK!”I shouted at my vampire boyfriend. “He’s Dying, MY BROTHER IS DYING I DONT CARE WHAT IT TAKES I CANT LET HIM DIE!”He replied. “Don’t you get it though he’s gonna force you, make you kill anyone he sees, and you know you won’t be able to restrain yourself,” I told him. The tears running down his face reminded me that he didn’t want to do this either, but the steel look in his eye convinced me he wasn’t going to back out. He would let the his self restraint he’s been building up for years all go to hell for his brother. So i tried one final thing,”If you do this, i can’t forgive you.” and his answer tore me to pieces,” YOU THINK I DONT KNOW, DO YOU REALLY THINK I DONT KNOW THAT, I LOVE YOU AND WHEN THIS BEGINS I WOULDNT WANT YOU TO FORGIVE ME! Goodbye Lia.” Then he faded away and i thought i would collapse. i didn’t think i could live without him. I Will Get Him Back. I Will. The Summer after that was torture, i felt like an empty shell without him. The videos on the news, bodies torn to pieces and drained of blood i knew he was being forced forced, but it still hurt to know what he’s done. The wall of different addresses in my closet gave me hope, made me think of the good memories with him. It was the only thing that got me through the day. I Will Find Him.
( don’t really know if it’s chaotic enough but this idea was in my head so. also ignore the lowercase writing please i have it turned on and don’t feel like switching it)
You never asked…. but do i deserve it i’m not perfect despite the thoughts you have that i am
You never asked but what if i’m not okay i do want to stay but i’m not sure anyone else would even see if i disappeared with everyone looking at me
You never asked but did you ever think that i had to work for everything did it cross your mind that the little miss perfect could make mistakes too
You never asked but what if you did what if instead of telling you were listening
You never asked and now it’s too late
we may not be able to fly like a bird but we fly in every other way. we fly and soar in our hearts. every compliment, appraising word, caring word they make us soar, fly. Every accomplishment pushes to fly higher of the ground till you can’t even see it. The sky is the limit and the only way to get there is to fly. so maybe we can’t fly like a bird but i know we’ll find a way to fly every other way.
