As the sky turned bright scarlet, and the moon started to come out. She bought about her past mom beating her. Dad leaving her. Foster care fleeing her. She fell in love with a smart boy his name is Zeth. Well one day they got into a fight and he began not to care. She knew that would happen in her heart she felt it. It cracked a line shoving it's way across. He still loves her sure. But not enough to stay... She began to feel like the sunset fading.

I was standing in my room getting ready for my first day of high school. I was so excited. After I was done getting ready I grabbed my phone, did my chores and started to walk to school. My cousin gave me his best friends snap and discord. I yexte his friend and we clicked. I fell in love. Not for his looks. But for his mind. His soal. His happiness. He makes me wanna spend the rest of my life with him. And we will live in Japan and have kids of our own. Cause we want a big family. He ha a girlfriend right now but we'll fix that because we are In love. I don't get butterflies I get killer bees and weak knees. He got me thinking about him every night. This is proof that love you feel alive and wanna do more to b with them. Especially when they live 1,028 Miles away.

I looked out the window and watched the rain poor, it hit the glass as if it were intending to break it, I feared the rain… I pulled myself out of my trance and walked down stairs to get a cup of hot chocolate that’s what I always did on rainy days. I opened the drawer with the spoons and went over to the lazy Suzy to grab a glass. “ Care to join me for a movie” mom asked. I jumped. She was never home. “No thanks I think ima just go to bed I’m kinda tired” I lied as I mustered a fake yawn, which actually drained me. I put the powder into the cup. Walked over to the sink, and filled it with water. Then I walked to the microwave and put the cup in for 3:00. While waiting for it to stop I sat on the counter and looked at mom cause it sounded like she was going to say something. She just sat on the couch her legs balled up to her chest facing sideways so she could see me, with a steaming cup of what I believed was coffee, looking like a blubber fish as she opened and closed her mouth. “How was school?” She finally asked. I looked down at my legs. I couldn’t tell her about the boys that kept chasing me to the bathroom and occasionally grabbed my butt or boobs even after I push them away and tell them to stop. I pushed my dark curly hair out of the way and said “fine”. Just at that moment the microwave beeped causing me to jump. I slid off the counter in relief and grabbed my cup. “ I love you” mom whispered as I walked up to my room. “ you too” I replied walking the rest of the way up my stairs and shut my door behind me. I took a sip of my hot chocolate and burnt my tongue so I slid my cup on the nightstand beside my bed and ate the brownie my friend got for me. After I did that I slid my head phones on and stared at my roof as Rod Wave played in my ears. I cried. I missed my da- No I couldn’t think of him. Without noticing I drifted off to sleep. “Dad!!!!!!!!!!” I screamed as I saw his body lie on the ground his blood smoking into the earth, the rain washing his blood into a river toward my feet.
I woke up screaming looking out my window where my dad had once died. I hated when I had those nightmares reliving everything that happened that night. I took a deep breath and heard a pounding on the door downstairs, familiar to the ones that pounded the day of my dads death… My heart skipped a beat, then raced like it had a birth defect. The banging continued. “ Mom get the door” I yelled as I opened my door. No response. She must be with her boyfriend AGAIN. I hate how she replaced dad! I ran down the stairs combing my fingers through my hair and fixing my shirt that was pulled up and my pants that were twisted.
I opened the door with a smile that soon faded when I saw who it was. Officer Koning great… My heart raced more and more until I collapsed. I felt my head on the floor than nothing.
I woke up in the hospital screaming “Daddy” on the top of my lungs. I looked around confused. I started yanking off all of the tubes when Officer Koning came in. “Where is my mom?” I asked. He looked down and said in a pitiful tone “She’s gone”. “Gone? Gone? No. No. I had just seen her Heathy and alive. They must have the wrong per-“ Officer Koning cut me off by pulling me on his arms “shhhhh” he said soothing me. Which made my tears flow heavier. I didn’t even tell her I loved her. I could have watched a movie with her. I payed back my expression all gone I was confused. Officer Koning could clearly see that so he nodded and walked out of the room. When he got out I saw that the knife had fell out of his pocket. I slit all the way up my wrist and thought “ I’m coming mom and dad. Nothing is as strong is our roots”.

I couldn’t stop my heart that pounded so full, it wanted to pop out like my chest was a hole

She watched as he walked out the door, and somehow knew he wasn’t coming back, Her heart had broke, just like that She ran to her room and cried for him to come home, but daddy was taken, where did he go… She got visits but only through plastic… Couldn’t even here him without the phone, so much happened She never could speak to him for her tears would fall She just wanted her dad that was all She lived with her mom who didn’t have a clue that she wanted to kill herself because she was done with getting bruised, mom would beat her until she was black and blue, but she couldn’t fight back, kinda reminded her of the game clue, She went through tons of foster houses, but when she finally found a home, she stayed got raped what else can happen to a child that’s 8 She sheds tears bigger than rain drops, and her demons scare her so bad it’s like she bleeding underneath, but she puts her fake face on and doesn’t say a word, hopefully she can change before she hits a nerve.

I stood out in a field of posies, where the pollen washed my thoughts away I looked around for beauty instead of what lied in my head, the screaming cruel words that just wanted me dead I climbed the latter of doom, every time I thought, In this castles chamber all I want to do is rot, Again the thought made me weak, I tumbled to the ground then said “ even the week can awaken before they collapse” So I got up and for the first Time opened my eyes to the world of wonder…

The light above me started to flicker, The sight around me started to blicker, I wanted to be held tight, but the demons always come at night As I spread my wings, the light that gleams started to burn my side, so I quickened and quickened my stride, just to see the demon feeding on my arms, to see him pull strips of skin till it dripped down the brim, Before you came I wanted to die...... Is that a sin?