Today finally everything was starting to come true everything I dream of starting to fall in line like domino’s I was super excited to start on my first day I had everything planned out in my head what to do and what to say I practice for this for a couple of months now hopefully everything goes right no casualties don't wanna hurt nobody or even put someone six feet under directly as night fell come planed to started to fall apart I started shaking bubble guts throwing up everywhere as time went by I kept second guessing myself now asking myself is this really me now the phone started to ring it was my boyz checking to see if I was still with the plan an plus they was tell their were outside waiting on me i didn't want to tell them at the last minute i wanna pussy out so I told them I will be outside in a few minutes so I rush outside hop in the car with da guys so we started driving to the destination as we got closer I got more nervous then we pulled up to the house we were scoping out for a two months then we make sure nobody was home as plan after that we put on our mask we reach the house we started to look for ways to get inside the house with making noise as we made our in the house we split up so we could find the safe an also cover more ground if any bads happens scream ice cream so I searched downstairs one of my friends went upstairs an the other went to the basement couple mins goes by I found the safe an the money in the master bedroom so I called my bros they come rushing upstairs someone grabs the money also the jewelry then my other goes after the safe trying to crack it took him approximately 6 minutes once we go the safe open everything went left my friends started to fight with each other one thing lead to another shots and fires between my two friends one was laying on the floor with a hole in his head an the other was shoving me telling me to come on before the police arrive as we run outside hop in the car not even 2 minutes the cops was already coming down the street just because these two wanna have a fight who gets the most from the cut now dam of my friends are dead an the other is trying to out run the cops speeding down the road going 120 miles one wrong turn we are going to be next ones dead high speed chase lasted for hour an half before we ended up crashing into the pool luckily for me my side of the car wasn’t that damage but my friend on the hand was fuck he was stuck in the car with no possible way he stared yelling my name saying don’t leave me we are supposed be boys as the siren got closer i run left my friend for dead or a jail cell i know i wasn’t to far from one myself but i kept running with everything the money an the jewelry praying that i get away like
Addictioned to feeling continuous to pulling me back an fourth the need from the pleasure what is does to mind the fantasy that replays in my head talking to debating if i should go throw as planned not knowing i gotta seriously problem something tells me in the back of my head this all normal other said saying if we get caught we tell them the truth also teling my teling myself tell the truth no were going to lie can’t let me parents know about my problem
Life is like lemon so you gotta make lemonade gotta make the best out of everything life may be hard but it's the beauty of the pain an struggle
So whatever you decide to with enjoy every single moment prepare to overcome these overcompenstate dont let that energy goes to waste so you gotta squeeze them lemon into lemonade watch the results outcome
Beautiful Saturday morning its a perfect Day to go for a walk in park also it’s perfect Day to use my new camera i just got two days age this camera should get all the Right angles here.
This is great place to take a picture selfie Time click Oh look how great this picture look you can see my muscles an look them Bisits dam i look i think might take some girll off their an to remind them these girk is for the streets.
Another perfect place to take a picture sitting on the park bench near this men acting like a Statue click oh man look at your boy looking like a light skinned camel Chocolate a bitch might wanne bite or lick me.
Let look those two pictures before i post them on the internet hold up wait minute whats that in the back is someone committing a crime a ally hold up how doesn’t no one esle see that hold up did she stab him in the back an just leave him guessing that is Exchange gone wrong i bet he wanted that happy ending but got a Totally different one then he Expected
Sitting back thinking about our old memories sometimes i caught get up hoping you remember me i remember the first time you gave birth to me I come out crying my ass the first thing you said to me boy you better stop call all that crying im mother plus it feels like I have been waiting on you for centuries just remembering how you an dad played in my face the whole time saying awe look at my baby dam hopefully you remember do you remember that dad come home late as fuck on Christmas day dressed up as Santa just to tell me, Santa Claus, is real do you remember i had my first drink of wine at age of ten years old dam we had some good times you an i could on forever talking about our memories together i just wish I was in that car accident not you
Why is everyone life better than mines i work harder than as the rest of them but i still don’t get no blessing coming my way what i do i have to do honestly i pray an believe shit still doesn’t work in my favor no trying to be hater or anything fuck it why do i always have feel like I’m stuck can’t get nowhere in life everyday i wake up i takes risks even roll the dice guessing everyone else life matter but mines fuck the world
Been having stomach pain for weeks causing me not to eat honestly don't know what caused it the pain just come out of nowhere could it be from that McDonald's or burger king dam I gotta stop eating so much hope not I love to eat shit I can't stand cooking at time what if I might be pregnant that bet not being the problem the last time I had sex I told that stupid baster to use a condom maybe I should go to the doctor but I really don't wanna go and get some bad news that's going to fuck up my life I really don't know where the stomach pain came from let pop a couple of pills maybe that would work an sleep this day pain pain pain please go away because you are really fucking up my appetite the next days comes around I still have this fucking pain omg I'm starting to get nervous now what to let me call my home girl she works at a doctor office she might know what's going on starts dialing Shawanda phone number please pick up girl I need you hello wassup girl how you doing I don't mean to bother you while you are working but quick question I been having stomach pain for a couple weeks now an I don't know what's cause it can you give me a couple of tips well girl the first could be you might be pregnant or you some food that you ate is causing you to have a stomach virus maybe you don't drink enough water you need to come down here let me check you out girl but Shawanda I don't want to go to the what if it comes back that I'm pregnant girl I don't want any kids that are going to fuck up my life girl I don't know what to tell you honestly if you not trying to come to the doctor's office it aint much I can do then well schedule me appointment for tomorrow I can fit you in today you know I got you, girl, anything for the homie okay girl I'm on my way now give like 20 minutes ight girl see you when you get dam hopefully I'm not pregnant please let it be a stomach virus hop in the shower 10 minutes later hops out an gets dress leave out the house an hop in her car starts driving so I pulled up to the doctor office park my car hop out walks in the office right on time my girl was waiting on me Shawanda said dam girl what took you so fucking long my bad girl I had to shower up they walk to the room ight girl let's run some test first is the pregnancy one let's get that out the cause your pussy ass looks nervous as hell they both start laughing okay give me 5 minutes I will let you know what time test say 6 minutes goes by shawanda said laughing girl you having baby stop playing nah I'm messing with girl I wanted to see your face once I said that lol but the problem is you eat out so fucking much girl you got to eat better no outside food for a month can you do that learn how to cook whatever maybe you can come over and cook for me whenever you not cooking for your man nah hoe you need a man lol Shawanda you funny these nigga ain't shit but thanks for seeing me today let's have some drinks some times I miss hanging around u bitch I miss you too girl be safe an your welcome get better to hoe
Let me tell you what it’s like reading a book or story feels like you did eight lines of cocaine it takes you to a different universe honestly it makes you forget about everything else and what’s going on around you sometimes those stories or books seems like you are actually in that person shoes just getting that connection with the character how they go through every obstacle their pain the journey makes you wonder did the person develop this story
