The bright love we share It can last without the air The air of sweet lines Now replaced with a gem’s shine And a ring on what is mine

The dark love we share Has been tarnished by the air The air of your ghost Which can not ever replace The true love once in its place

An empty mind A blank page A fresh start A clear stage

An absence of color A semblance of thought A pearl encased A battle not fought

An angel’s wings A dress for the bride A flake of snow A polar’s hide

But don’t be fooled By the harmless facade For beneath the beauty Are the lies of a fraud

The day of love The day I dread The day where doves Fly overhead

The professions of love The kisses under stars The sunsets far above Never could be ours

For our love did break Heart shatters on the floor Pieces you did take Until there were no more

So I hate this day I hate this month For I have no say No one to confront

I want to feel, I want to know I want to love, I want to grow I want to live, I want to fly I want to laugh, I want to cry

I want to run, I want to be I want to search, I want to see I want to shout, I want to hear I want to give, I want to cheer

I want to want the things that others do To live my life to the fullest too To be normal and plain all like the rest Giving my all, always trying my best

Love is the lie that keeps us alive It gives us hope as we take the dive Good at first and it seems forever Until they say what they swore they’d never

Disgust and contempt finally reveal They fester and grow until it’s all you feel

Everything shatters like it was made of glass This feeling of “love” wasn’t made to last In the end there’s nothing left to discuss Hate is the truth that ends up breaking us

Hello, my newest affection Heartbeats in your direction Time slows when you’re around And my knees hit the ground

You make me lose my senses My whole brain condenses Thoughts swirling in my head Not seeing where they’ve led

Eventually they slow You lose your shiny glow Boredom overcomes me From your spell I break free

My heartbeat drops back down Falling to the ground And I begin to look for another Saying farewell, my almost lover

The fuse is lit, there is no going back I feel it coming, ready to attack It’s standing there, breaking my will I don’t want it to happen, I remember it still

The flame travels, further down it goes I steady myself, ready for the final blows The cuts the scrapes, they build and build Until I look down, my whole body filled

The spark hits the spot, the bomb explodes It all floods in, taking what’s owed I do not fight back, I let myself lose It all started with a spark, a light, a fuse

One fatal misstep One slip of the truth That’s all it took For me to lose you

My freedom, my will My life and my joy Everything I had All lost in my ploy

No reason to live Now that they’re gone No reason to be Or to ever move on

So I’ll sit here and smile Biding my time Waiting for the moment To say my last ryhme

Their whsipers followed me through the halls. Shrouded me in a veil of shame. Cut across my skin like small knives leaving small trails of self-deprecation in their wake. And the worst part was that I didn’t know whether or not I was the villain they painted me out to be. I tried to deny it, bury the doubt deep inside. But somehow, the unwelcome thoughts always seem to be the ones constantly invading my mind.

I’d never claimed to be a saint, but I’d never been a devil either. I was comfortably in the expansive grey area between the two, until I wasn’t. That’s what no one tells you about the grey area: It only takes one mistep to fall down into the inky darkness.

I hadn’t realized what a precarious situation I was in. The consequences my actions would bring about. The hearts I would break. Mine and his. I would give anything if only I could go back and fix it. Fix everything. Erase the kiss that never should’ve been. And create the kiss that would’ve been.

But it was far too late. I knew it. The whole school knew it. Everyone knew it. Because if there’s one thing teenagers love to do, it’s spread rumors.

The choices I make The things I must do The hearts I break I’ll always hurt you

You curse my name You scream and you cry Cloaked in my shame I watch them all die

But what you don’t know Is that it’s not easy for me I am my own foe I can never be set free

I am chained to this life Forced to live in hate Casing pain and strife Carrying out cruel fate