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Christopher Ryan
Soon to be
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Christopher Ryan
Soon to be
Soon to be
Soon to be
I’ve had quick love
Love that burns as rapid as a hot candle.
No matter how long that candle may shine , it dies in my hands
Leaving only burns.
I haven’t loved slowly.
The type of love who’s punch is delayed.
I wonder what it’s like to know someone before the heart skips.
To know what it is I’m falling for.
Love at first sight is misunderstood.
It’s a fantasy where your head fills in ...
I believe my mother hid things from me.
Her affirmations couldn’t hold the weight of a fly.
I believe my mother lied to me.
Her smile a play she’d perform to keep from finding her out.
But I did.
I don’t believe my mother.
My friends and classmates peaked her interest far more than I could’ve. Grades. Future College. Sports.
I struggled in each one.
I believe my mother wish she had anothe...
It starts with your Laugh
Your joy causing tears to fall
My hand placed on your cheek to catch its descent.
I’d lean in for a kiss,
Your Eyes gleam from the hint ,
You’d naught ever resist.
So begins our song.
Accelerando
The Melody of our bodies syncing as we love to its tune.
Ordained by orchestra, we follow its lead.
Decrescendo
Fingers intwined, our breathes begin their solo
I need no...
The idea of love is restrictive.
Can I not also fall in love with my friend’s laugh?
Can I not long for conversations with my brother?
Can I not wish to see my favorite people daily?
When I think of love I think of intimacy
Moments shared through vulnerability.
Like the time we sang in the car , no matter how bad we were
Or how we danced despite our movements being so carefree and jagged
I sha...
Forget me.
Remember my love.
Always at your beck and call.
Never mind.
No one like me exists.
Yet another lonely gift
Maybe I wasn’t supposed to end up with you
Who didn’t deserve who ?
Im not perfect.
I just wanted to be worth it.
The pictures in my head show me the truth now.
I close my eyes , the trip was a while ago
Your space isn’t empty but void of emotion.
I was alone in San F...
I can’t forfeit my desire
Doleful, Your affection I no longer inspire
Remoteness our reaper, yet we played a part
Result: I’ve no more access to your heart
I still speak to you in my mind
The only intimacy with you I’ll find,
What I wish to share I speak softly and true,
In hopes the earth carries my words to you...
peace. ?
Peace isn’t doing everything for you.
I choose me.
I ain’t sorry.
Without me I ain’t doing all these things for you.
How you expect love from a vessel filled with hate
Constructed through faith, engaged by the way we all runaway from the problems we can’t face everyday.
Who are you?
You ain’t you.
You’re grieving from a wound you criticize.
Papa ain’t treat me right that’s why I...
No yelling this time.
I was silent.
I didn’t form a fist
My hand was stagnant
My love,
Ive stopped wishing to feel you.
I can’t smell your lilac perfume.
Your words, they no longer go through.
Theres no sense in continuing this
I’ve forgotten the flavor of your lipstick.
All I had left was your image
My , How that dried out my vision....