I just dreamt of someone that seems like the happiest person in the world

Her eyes were not gray and sad, they were brown and bright

There were no dark circles underneath her eyes, her skin was clear and white

She was not hiding her arms a shame of her body, she was showing them off wearing a beautiful yellow dress

What stood out the most besides her beauty was her smile

Not just for them being perfectly white and straight

But simply because it was not forced or fake

It was genuine

She was happy with herself

Tho she might be wearing my face, she was not me but the girl I wanted to be

When I woke up the only thought that came to mind was

“How could I be her ?”

The day that we said our goodbyes was the time that I cried hoping that tomorrow I’ll feel alright I didn’t think I would be able to get out of bed but I did, with dark bags underneath my eyes It wasn’t easy at first Time felt slow Days went by Then it was weeks and months When it finally hit a year I have forgotten the pain when hearing your name I was finally at peace If you would have asked me what life without you would have felt like the first night when you said goodbye My answer was “ there is no life without you, I can’t imagine waking up and not seeing your eyes opening, laying next to me” But asking me now, when so much time has passed my answer is “ I’ll be fine without you, yeah at first the idea was painful but with time it slowly became easier, we weren’t meant to be and that’s ok because I know now that out there’s someone else that is right for me”