I’m done with you….

The hate you have given me.

That lives inside my eyes.

Deep within my soul.

The negativity within you,

That lashed out,

The rage from within,

from uncertainty,

from desperation.

I am your mirror.

And to my patriarch;

Lo, to the man that will never see me more than a child.

You suck!

You stole my joy of childhood

Made me grow up too early.

You stole my will to drive and flo...

These words are hard to come by;

My heart races,

My mind is ensnared by the thoughts of you.

Your eyes of Emerald,

Your hair of an Orange Glistening morning sun.

You walk on by

My heart floats like a man on the moon.

And just like that

you’re gone too soon.

Oh Woe is me!

I stop and stare!

Tongue tied!

When will I destroy my chains of anguish and fear?

Risk it all for a glance?

When will I stop...

I look over at that stupid newspaper stand, and as I get closer I see my face on the front of the courant.

“Fuck!”

I look down at my feet and smirk.

The feeling of emptiness pry it’s way in.

The remorse of not saying I love you enough.

The regret of not saying goodbye.

The days of missed opportunity,

Thinking I had more time in this world.

Euphoria encases my being like a warm wave crashing o...

“Why would I do that?”

My mind racing like a formula 51 driver at the Indy 500.

The zips and turns in my mind, reliving the fear and loathing of the previous 24 hours.

It’s hard to breathe,

so I take deeper breaths that do not help.

I lean against the wall feeling dumber and dumber as angst grips my soul.

Doubts comes surging back from the depths of hell like a freight train of its track over...

“Get out of my house!”

I roar like a lion.

I stare intently, glossing over and over and over again.

The man, staring back at me, unphased by my anger sees through my hollow rage.

He haunts me

Hunts me down

Follows me wherever I go.

He smashes my spirit

Kills my ego

And chokes the life out of my hopes and dreams.

He’s there with me,

Taunting me

Menacingly.

Yet,

He’s the only one who has been...

It began, as all bad days do.

The same!

I wish I could feel:

passion,

a desire,

a lust for living,

Zeal for adventure.

I!

don’t!

I do not…

I play it safe,

I do not take risks,

I have been ingrained a fear for failure.

I want to fly higher than an astronaut soaring in the cosmos

I want to feel fear of asking the hottest female out.

I want to live in a mansion so big that I can hide from all my tr...

I have been longing for this moment for so long like a boy missing his father.

I thought this was a sick joke.

It is been, seventeen years, since I’ve seen your faces.

Now; the memories of you are faded to black, fin.

This sketch is uncharted, and yet all the memories of old, reappear like a flash of ten thousand suns.

I am.

Lost.

For words.

The pain in my heart like a frozen hand on top of ...

“I’m coming for you,” she laughed……

I wake up, gazing into the darkness of my dorm room.

The cold sweat dripping off of me like a cold rain.

She gave me sleep paralysis, like a ton a bricks sitting on my body I struggled to breathe.

“I won,” I thought to myself. I’ll never open another stupid chest in my life.

No more dares to go into the attic alone either. I chuckled.

A girlish chuckle came fr...

(8-16-21)Dear Ms. Toad sucker,

I hate your stinking guts, you make me wanna vomit. Yet, I want to be with you almost daily, and did not understand why you wanted to be single. I long to see your smiling face of yours, and the loneliness is getting the best of me.

Sincerely

S.W.

(8-21-21) Slugworm,

You can devour a purse of one eyed trouser snakes. I have long missed yo...

Deep breaths,

take up far more,

space than silence.

Yet they give way to my tear soaked sobs of regret. I’m having a hard time breathing in between my sobs as the tears roll down my face.

“I’m sorry PJ” I wail. As I reach out to you; words are meaningless in a time such as this. I feel the heat of a thousands suns scorch the earth. Angels rain down from the sky above.

“It should have...