When you meet the one time stands still Like a bright flower in a dark cave
you feel suspended, a lone bright spot Where everything is dark and you’re focused On the one bright spot Something that can’t be touched Happiness and love the best moments encapsulated everything else in the dark Negativity, hate, hard times drowned out The longest you’ll ever smile Eternity in your heart moments to look back at They never fade

I grab my sisters hand and pull her towards the cliff edge with me. She nods slowly in my direction. Then we jump. It’s sepember, yet we haven’t found a new place to stay. The days grow colder leading to October, we only have so long till it’s a necessity to find shelter every night, She hasn’t been doing well either since we lost her pills, she sees and hears things again. It’s already been tough enough as it is, without this holding us back. It’s hard for her to walk a few minutes let alone hours or days. I don’t know how we got to this point, life used to be so much simpler, you do what you have to though. It’s now October, I haven’t written in awhile. It’s been tough these last couple weeks, we found an old abandoned shack. The roof is caved in but a corner of the room is still cozy and built enough. She really hasn’t been speaking just mutters in the night to herself in the corner. I’m slowly losing my mind as well it feels like. I just don’t know what to do, I never thought I’d be in this situation, I don’t know how to take care of her, I don’t know where to go, where our next meal will come. Moving into November, I honestly don’t know how we survived this long, it’s freezing, it’s also getting dark sooner. We only have so much time to find food before it gets too cold, especially for two, when it’s only me doing the gathering and hunting. It’s now december, there’s now snow fall. We can’t really go outside. Only in the day time and when we do it’s very brief. Our clothes are torn and I can’t keep her by me long enough before she starts to run, I’ve almost lost her a few times. I just… I just don’t know what I should do, we’re barely surviving. We escaped hell just to land right back into it. We… I wasn’t prepared, it was a dream. It should’ve stayed that way, just a little longer. Maybe we should’ve planned more. I… I think this is as far as we make it. To anyone who may come across this, stay away from that town!!! Just avoid going to far west. If you do, well I just hope you’re strong. Bye.

Alone in the world On a bed curled Why is life so cruel Everyday a fool Unsure of what to do with my time Always a search but never can find What to live for A constant war Maybe it’s me This living is free Why lay everyday There’s no reason to stay There’s a world ready to explore Life isn’t a chore I can be happy Sappy And even a little scrappy It’s been awhile since a smile It’s time for a new lifestyle Here we go No more being low

What is that in the mirror? Is it me or someone else, I don’t know I can’t remember. Is it me or is it a demon, an angel. Who is there they seem faceless but like I’ve seen em before, like I’ve known them forever. They seem slender, they seem wide, I can’t perceive. I can’t find the answer. Every second I look things change, the person in the mirror looks different, feels different but they’re so familiar. Time keeps ticking and they get older. The hands more shaky, why can’t I pick up the things at my feet, it hurts to move. It’s starting to fade I can barely see. Who is that there. Who.

Darkness and loneliness Distance and drowning The darkness reaches our minds and hearts It takes our spirit and pierces us like a dart One moment happy but never lasting long Until the day you awaken When the light appears When you’ve finally had enough Then Happiness replays again and again like a favorite song

Another day passes, getting closer and closer to take off. Stomach turning, mind racing. Excited to see what was once my everyday but lost in the fact I have to leave someone so important. Why are goodbyes so tough, even with knowledge that you’ll be back, the closer it gets the worst you feel. The majority of your life without em and yet, you can’t even remember a time when they weren’t there. It’s easy to act brave another to truly feel it. Goodbyes are tough and will always be, maybe it’s a fear of change or the uncertainty of life with each day. All I know is I can’t wait till the day when there’ll be no goodbyes. Only when going to work or picking up our kids only hours away till we see eachother again, instead of months. What a perfect world it’ll be, but till then, goodbye, till the next time when my world is perfect once more.