It’s not something I could name, it’s
all those I love sitting on my shoulders, whispering questions in my ears and pulling the answers out of my throat.
It’s the hooks in my lips, pinning them back to my cheeks.
It’s the ever present knife in my brow, twisting when I feel the need to speak.
It’s the cinch bag of my stomach, shooting closed in defiance whenever I consider a meal.
It’s more tha...
I was eleven
Knew less than I do now
You were thirteen
All alone, and I showed you some kindness
God, how could that go wrong
We were roughhousing
As kids do
And you pinned me to my bed
You hovered over me
God, how did you forget
You started talking about sex
And I couldn’t throw you
This is why I learned Jiu Jitsu
Because I never want this again
God, how does a kid do this
And I don’t th...
Don’t smile
Run away
And hide
Don’t laugh
Rip it out
And run
All emotion
A smoking gun
Now run
Feet pound
Gasps for air
Faster
Her darkness
Just behind
Faster than before
Heart pounding
Breaths shallow
Running harder
No emotion
Just away
Hide it all
Trees ablaze
Smoky lungs
Coughing now
Stop.
Turn around
Quick draw
The queen has fallen
Look down on your mother,
Broken boy
Look down at ...
True beauty flowers in love
And those I love are not by blood
Not bonds carefully manufactured
Not sentenced by blood in my veins
Like poppies in my garden,
Like that pumpkin in the fall,
Things I never meant to plant,
But show up all the same
I have three brothers,
Two claimed by my own beating heart,
The other by the blood it pumps,
But I love them all the same
My mother is the words I’ve re...
I’m not heliocentric
‘Cause I guess I’m Ganymede
Out here with Jupiter
And all the others that you’ve
Screwed over
Screwed up
Straight up screwed
I’m out here with Jupiter
A name in a list under yours
Finally a footnote to your glory
‘Cause you’re my Jupiter
I wish I orbited anyone else but you
But I’m stuck out here with Jupiter
Stuck out in the cold
With Io and Europa and all the others you’v...
I have fifteen tattoos, have jumped out of three planes, climbed the tallest mountains in every continent, and have been married seven times. There is only one that I regret, the one that started this whole adventure.
I warn you, it’s awful, one I regret, and I’m only telling the story because of a dare.
See, I dated a woman because of a bet, and her brother cursed me. Now I have to take every...
Know that death comes with love,
I will wipe away your tears,
Turn you away from the body you leave
Know that death comes with a price,
Not of emptiness or metaphor,
But your fare to cross the river
Know there is a place for you,
Whether you believe in fields or brimstone,
Or nothing at all
Know that your self is not a crime,
Your judgement comes with care,
And a great deal of tissues
Know t...
Every day, I break down
Whether from stress or sound
It depends on who’s around
Who’s there to guide me
When I can’t get out
Every day I break down
Mourning what could have been
I don’t mean lost relationships
I mean my lost marbles
I just want to heal
Every day I break down
The same old wounds reopening
I’m always over or undereating
Seeing faces in the walls,
Or shadows in the halls
Every ...
Nothing.
My eyes are still filled with tears, my thoughts are still full of hurt, but I feel nothing.
The tears refuse to fall, though I know they should, so I sit in the kitchen, watching the candles burn.
There’s one for every family death that’s happened on this day, plus Oscar Wilde’s. One for Lyall , from last year, one for Fang, and several more that I’m not sure I could name if I tried.
...
The world is darker than in death.
Thanatos’s skin shines like a full moon, though his wings seem to suck in all color.
His eyes were swirling pools of beauty, like the pictures from the Hubble Telescope.
It was a harsh wake up call to have him pulled from my sight, to be yanked back into reality.
I should be grateful, but I am furious. I had freedom, it was right in front of me, his hand outstre...