If my heart throbs once more

maybe there’ll be no blood left to pour

When my chest aches violently

And my vision has no chance to restore

Cold sweat on my fingertips as I anxiously open the door

My legs constantly tremble as they slowly glide across the floor

It’s only a matter of time before

I have to face you

And I remember all those memories in my mind I can’t ignore

And it doesn’t matt...

Sometimes

Every once in a while

I just take a moment to cry

And I sit down in a quiet room

And cherish that moment in time

Just to feel as if the world stopped and that there was a pause to life

And as I’m sitting alone, I’ll hide all the knives just in case I feel the urge to die

And I’ll turn on the fan to quickly dry away my tears just in case someone walks by

I’ll keep my feelings priv...

I hope that he feels all the sick and brutal feelings that I felt

Multiplied by two

I hope that he feels all the insecurities and extreme low self esteem that I had

Double that by two

I hope he feels the intense loneliness that I felt at night, that keeps him up until two

I hope he feels every single ounce of pain that I felt

And multiply all of that by two hundred and two

I went through it ...

The beautiful boy walks by

My eyes linger as he walks across the floors

I feel a feeling I can recognize

This is a feeling I’ve felt before

And I’ve already lived through the delusions

And I’m afraid that I’ll live through some more

Not again, I beg and hope, not again, not anymore!

The endless thoughts of deceiving scenarios

And unrealistic fantasies that my mind would restore

An imagin...

The dark heavy clouds

The nights of heavy rain

It pours out through the earth

And makes the stems grow out sustained

The sun shines brightly in the morning

It is then the start of a new day

And after everything has dried and flourished

I still don’t hear his name.

He is no longer here

In the earth, he doesn’t remain

What a disheartening grief it is, to fathom and live life this way!

For ev...

This moment, this time, I want to make things right

I don’t want to dwell on the past, and I don’t want to lose my mind

Because after all these weeks, it felt like I tragically lost my life

I was broken, I was lost, it’s as if I was only partially alive

But this time around, i want to do better, and I want to focus my mind…

On the better things in life, and to keep the bad things out of sight ...

True pleasure never reaches me, when I feel such deep resent

Curiosity has rapidly overtaken me, to such a substantial extent

That I keep all my senses thoroughly focused on my threat

And wait for the pleasure I desire to assuredly be felt

For when I shifted my focus and saw her walking so elegantly,

She dressed so finely and had abounding heads turning

She was the pleasure to everyone’s ey...

As I stare on and deepen my gaze at this fascinating scenery

There are thoughts piling in my mind while standing before this greenery

It’s just hard for me to accept that you’re no longer here with me

Life was a movie with you, Life was such a big fantasy

And now our bones are weakened while we grieve and go through this agony

And our flimsy bodies somehow find a way to move without our source...

Each breath I take

Each step I walk

Each morning I awake

Each time I talk

Each night I sleep

With all my needs fulfilled

Living a life so chic

While feeling super thrilled

But others don’t have this opportunity

to live such a life

They endeavor to win against their adversity

And weep profusely in the depths of the night

Who else is worthy of thanks for my livelihood?

That is full of co...

The clouds running around the earth as they block out the blazing sun

The temperature is flaking down while the kids stay in for lunch

The folks are wearing their finest coats as they dine out for brunch

While their coats are covered with snowflakes that bring joy in the biting cold

Beanies, Gloves, Hot Cocoa, and Fluffy socks, such is the greatness that winter holds...