Ass on shore feet dangling in the deep end I don’t know how to swim but I know how to pretend Until the guy who I thought was my friend Gave me a push over the edge Legs all around but nothing in reach Just keep swimming is what dory preached But that’s not what saved me that day This girl from history who I wanted to be bae Decided to put her certification to use Get saved by my crush, I could see the abuse She breathed into me when she’s usually taking mine away Although I was near death, this is where I wanted to stay I came through with my friends all around But I couldn’t help my boner I saw when I looked down And I thought to myself “she should have just let me drown”

Climb up a ladder to the top of the tree To a place where we could go and be Alone as the moon in a cloudy sky Sitting in place, but lost in your eyes We laughed and cried as little kids do Now I sit here in silence thinking of you The games we would play and how I’d let you win But nothing could prepare me for the moment when You told me after senior year it’s goodbye I couldn’t stop the tears in my eyes I promise to love you wherever you go I don’t love with my eyes, I love with my soul In this treehouse after prom for one final dance The last 15 years gone in a glance Sitting here once more the night before the house gets sold The stars don’t shine back they’re no longer gold The sky full of stars seemed dead and cold; a place once so magical now hurt to behold

Look at all these basketballs All orange like a fruit basket in fall (what?) Don’t know what I’m saying at all All focused like I’m on adderall Taking shots in the back of stall Before making my casting call
Orange is the new black and I’ll Get blacked out after to much alcohol No need to raise the roof, I’m shattering walls So yeah I’m cliche like a gap at the mall Like a whore in an orgy I’m coming for y’all Chokin like you got something locked in your jaw Your bodies a piece of art I’ll pin you up in the hall Life goes up and down like a sea saw It gets messy when you fuckin her raw Don’t know what I’m saying after all That I’m an alcoholic, my names Paul

Have no idea where that come from 🤣

Take us to your leader Save us from our feeder! Nobody is safe for where they roam They pillage and plunder and take your homes Maybe we could get along But our enemy is too strong Get me to the pentagon Before all of our friends are gone We only have a fighting chance If we stand Up hand in hand But we said that last planet And the other planet And the other planet I just don’t understand it! We did everything our ruler said We paid our dues and gave our bread With the threat of decapitation looming over severed heads Oh no it has just begun Hold tight to daughters and sons They had just wiped out your only sun! You only have 8 minutes Before all light and life is finished I wrecked my ship crash landed it So I will face my death with yours standing… Shit

My neighbors decor brings all the cops to the yard And they’re like Is that a real corpse Damn right Is that a real corpse I would ask you But you have the right to remain silent

Sitting in the back of my grandmas car after church on a Sunday The wind whooshing through the back seat from the open window She asked if I wanted to go to heaven, I said someday She said “do you believe Jesus Christ, died on the cross for your sins and came back from the dead?” I said I do I never cried But that was the day that a 6 year old died in the backseat of her 84 Plymouth Now heaven is the place I haven’t been but yet I miss it? Or do I miss the people from my life who now call it home? I’m curious but not in any rush to know I strive so hard for the unattainable version of myself that I want to be But it’s hardly every the cross that gets me down on my knees Been 22 years since that car ride and I still teeter the line My soul is in bondage and I can feel the lion On the prowl towards me, it’s days prey My back against the wall all I can do is pray I shattered the cage my shackles unchained I come out a new man, saved, unscathed What good is this body full of flesh? For when I die it’s the only thing that’s left I walk with the Lord, I never walk alone I died in that backseat, and Heaven is my home

No morning would be good, because your text makes it so A night of rest I would never know Seeing you again consumes my dreams And if it seems A dream Is all you would ever be I’d live my life trapped in memories Your absence leaves an empty space A pounding heart in a silent race How do you move on from something you can’t replace? Without you here, I simply waste away