I lay back and try to forget
That you ever even liked me
We were once friends
But it feels like a lifetime ago
Since you have spoken to me
You proposed when we were twelve
It was all fun and games
Then on my fifteenth birthday
You took my ring
When I wasn’t looking
I turned around to see
You on one knee
And we laughed
Our friend wedded us
In the school changing room
You were my reason to keep...
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I did it again, I overreacted
To something only so small
So small that whatever it was
Is hard to recall
I feel like a horrible person
I don’t know why it made me feel that way
And after all this time
My streak broke today
I can’t tell who I am
I promise I’ve tried
Whether I am me
Or the monster inside
I can’t seem to breathe
The tears covering my face
My ability to ...
Life without you is hell
I love you more than myself
There is no amount of things I could sell
That would inch close to the worth of you
Life without you is boring
Do you feel the same?
There’s a list of reasons that I’m ignoring
Of why I should just forget you
Yet life without you is inevitable
I don’t mean to disappoint
My feelings are negligible
But still there for you
Life without you ma...
The guilt dug its way deep inside his body. It was heavy and fluid, sinking into his stomach, eating through any other organs in its way making Lev feel sick. He slumped down around the corner of a doorway, sitting tucked against the wall, his head low, knees up to his chest.
The lights in the house were off and to any by passers it would appear as though no one was home.
Lev took a deep breat...
I stand and watch
As I fade into nothing
Staring down at my hands
As they disintegrate into dust
For they no longer have anything worth holding onto
Standing, helpless,
As I feel my tongue disappear
The words I never spoke,
And promised myself I would,
Will now forever go unspoken
Watching as my body crumbles below me
My knees buckling and body sinking
For I don’t deserve to stand on this wor...
If wishes fell like rain, then certainly I am a storm.
If wishes fell like rain, I would lay outside and drown while others seeked shelter from the cold.
If wishes fell like rain, I would hold the umbrella upside down and watch it fill with dreams.
Dreams of mine, dreams of others, dreams of the impossible.
I wish I could communicate with others, communicate my wants, my needs, my worries.
Bu...
“He just looks scary, he’s lovely deep down.”
The words lap back and forth over my mind, the same way the water does over my head as I try to stay up.
I’m not a bad guy, I’m not rude… I don’t mean to be. I don’t mean to be anything. I don’t mean to be here at all. I never wanted this to happen. I never wanted to be here. I never wanted to meet these people.
The water drags me down again as I pu...
**T**he first way I love you is every way
**H**ow you always make me laugh
**E**ven if I’m having a rubbish day
**R**eaching out to you will always make
**E**very day seem so much happier
**I **know you love me too
**S**ometimes being around you is enough
**N**o one can help me like you do
**O**r hurt me like you have
**T**hings like that make us stronger though
**O**nly bad things really impro...
I was just trying to be what you wanted.
All and everything you asked me for
And it hurts to know
My everything wasn’t enough
I gave you everything I had
I tried and tried
But it wasn’t what you pictured
And that’s too bad
I was just trying to be what you wanted
And I lost myself in the process
What’s the point of going through it all again
Just to find myself, if I’m not who I want
Around yo...
Dead
Is a strong word
Maybe I don’t want that
Not death in its entirety
Maybe part of it
Alive
Is a strong word
I guess I don’t want that either
Not all in it’s entirety
Definitely a part of it
I wish to be in between
Not dead
Nor Alive
Somewhere across the border
Of existence
I wish to be there
As an entity
Not someone of entirety
Just there
As a part of the world
As a part of earth
Not ...
