i didn’t mean to smile when you died

upturned

lips moving without instruction

bear witness to their stares

forlorn

they did not know you as well as i

they did not know me either

though they would protest

you were not devilish

usually

too kind

pats on my shoulder

fleeting

itching to move as the canter drones on

your body is an abomination

i can’t look away

comfort is expected

though unne...