TW-SH (as always i guess)

My heart is full of scars

My mind’s a battle ground

But nobody sees that

I want to cry out in pain but nothing hurts

What’s wrong with me?

Nobody see’s my my heart of torn up mess

Nobody knows I’m losing this war

Instead they see lines

Thick open red ones

Thin white strokes

Each a story

A story of distress

When I’ve carved out my flesh

Created canyons of red

And riv...

More of a vent I’m sorry

TW SH

I don’t know why i do this

Carving out chunks of my flesh

Letting blood trickle down my arms

The red joining the other streams

Soaking into the other canyons

Why do I do this

I think my heart is so broken

My mind a losing battle

But nobody sees that

Instead they see each line

Some open and red others a faint line

Each tells a story of a time of distress

Of wh...

TW-SH

I know the layers of skin

I’ve experienced them all

All exposed to the world, all

exposed to what should have been hidden by the comfort of many layers

but the world is cruel.

Somedays safe places are full of screams and tears

Somedays blood finds itself pooling out of small valleys along my arms

Out into a world it shouldn’t have to experience.

Somedays we have no way to express o...

I’m drowning

Fighting against the raging current

I’m screaming

Nobody hears me

They sit in their lawn chairs under colorful umbrellas and watch the waves of life

Peaceful they call it

They don’t see

I’m slipping

I swim and I fight

Yet I’m pushed farther away

I yell out each time I manage

I’m ignored

“Every teenager feels this way”

Im running out of energy

I can do this anymore

I want to slip i...

I’m screaming

I let my mask start to slip

My fake smile start to drop

I let these scars lay exposed

I’m crying out for help

I’m stuck in this pit

Ive called out to those whi claim to care

“God’s with you” paired with a heartless emoji

I’m yelling at a God who supposed to swear to never leave me

Painful silence in return

Love I once felt, he took back

I’m broken

I’m abandoned

I’m alone

I ...

I wish I never had to let go of times

When summer seemed to go on forever

Where the the days we’re filled

Running through the fields

Playing dolls in the grass

And building dams in the streams

The days where

mud on my face

grass between bare toes

Dirt under my finger nails

And ants cradled in my hands

Was all my daily life

When a smile on my face was the default

the world felt welcoming

And th...

If one ugly pebble

Taken from the beach

Where it once was surrounded by others just a like it

Just a little less smooth and a little less perfect

If it was tossed into the sea

To join the other fallen stones

Would anyone really notice?

Would it even make a sound?

I’m sure there’d be a plop as it hit the water

Maybe a few rings would radiate from the impact

But after the fact

After that pebble has...

You gave me directions to your house

Which streets to walk

And what to look for

How to get to your house

Even though we’re hundreds of miles apart

You wanted to show me your roses

Your orange trees I picked as a toddler

Your lemons to make lemonade

You’ve forgeten that I live across the country

You’ve forget my name

Soon you’ll forget yours

You’ve forgotten yourself

We’re losing more of you ea...

[Repost cause it kinda fits the prompt]

My heart used to bleed

My soul used to ache

My head used to spin

I used to break

Then came the doll maker

Who promised to fix me

He promised he delivered

Now im regretting

Stole all my pain, my joy, my emotion

Painted a face that would last forever

Heart no longer bleeds

It’s all been drained

It no longer loves

But it no longer pains

Ripped out my...

Normal

The same

Like the others

Then how come

They seem to be

Swimming laps and taking strides

While I stay behind

Struggling to surfaces

Drowned by waves life

Knocked down by each social interaction

If I’m normal

Why can’t I catch up

Why am I always lingering behind

Fighting to keep a pace

The others call normal

If I’m normal

Then why do I feel so broken...