Your eyes Becoming me All that I see Drowning beneath The waves Of green All that I am Has it been found again

Sit down To take the load off Pressure Pushing From every side Now we slide in and out Of feelings

Stay still Let go Send me a message So I can be sure Of where we stand Because without you I will turn this whole world to sand

You’re like a spring In the middle of the desert Your words like a hug I just can’t get enough With you I know I’m not alone Just swear I’m not alone

Her hazel eyes pierce the skin “Is there anything left from the man that’s within?” Her voice calms me The somber wandering of her melancholy mind It eases me to put my head back on the pillow There’s no world for tomorrow If you can’t remember the past today I exclaim in excitement She pushes back Her soft skin brushes up against mine Goosebumps form on my arm I can’t get past this dopamine fast It always goes away in the end I say But just take it day by day The path isn’t always clear But all you need is here

Far above The earth below The leaves will blossom And Some will grow They let me live For that I know What it is To be alone

Down below the roots run deep In my skin Your soul I’ll keep Here and now It’s where I’ll be But a world without you Is a world without me I’ll learn to cope To branch out and grow But one things for certain But that I’ll know What’s done is done Can’t take it back I just wish my world wouldn’t fade to black

Within the grey Is where I’ll stay I can’t survive I can’t stray

Sitting in silence Hoping for violence I can’t seem to get enough It’s in my bones But it’s breaking up In my system

I want to be okay in the silence But it can’t stop screaming at me The world around won’t stop assaulting me Tune it out Quiet the noise I can’t seem to stop This unhealthy joy And break this habit I’m mad like rabbits What can I Try to do It’s not enough Without you

Bring the noise Bring the noise Cut me out Fight like boys Bring the noise Bring the noise Hear me out Find me out

Working to make a living Leaving you in the past Every time I leave this town It’s like a breath of fresh air The only downside is you Living a movie Where you aren’t a part of the highlight reel Live vicariously theough me May not be enough I wish it want like this I wish I could do better I wish you could see the things I’ve seen Experience the world as me I wish I could see the world through your eyes Seeing the beauty in everything In awe of nature and the surroundings Instead I’m withering Unable to keep control I keep slithering Through my life

Star patterns taking the sky Floating around above us Everyone is different Even the ones we hate All cut from the same cloth With different artists One with hearts Geometric shapes Stripes Dots All the same But vastly different Love is like a wing Of a butterfly Everyone loves different Like me Not one is the same Loving multiple people Loving what you need to to survive Love exaggerated Love helps get you to where you need to be to live While there’s malice in the way Love overcomes and makes you insane With the flight of butterflies I don’t even know

We woke up in a trance Where were only in your head And I’m left out Everything is meaningless When I’m filled with regret

Awoke to the sound of silence Killing me slowly The armored regret Of dying alone Wasting away Taking pills to cope Leave me out to mope Uhhhh The cursed monkey junky

It started out with a little bit of hatred But I can’t seem to look away A little bit of animosity But I can’t seem to get away

The color fades With each mistake I lost my grip But no one knows I lost control It’s how it always goes

The color fades With each mistake I lost my grip But no one knows I lost control In the monochrome

Left it with a One kiss Two kiss Fuck you fist Seeing the world Through bloodshot eyes The hyper fixation Of what I can’t know I can’t let go Of my control It wreaks its havoc I just can’t have it A skeleton Of mind control I lost control In the monochrome

Finding happiness in loneliness Is all I want But this is paralisis With no time to let go Wait for me to change Wait for me to change I’m begging you I can get better There’s still hope left in me I will fight No matter how hard To beat this aching longing I’ve been feeling

Only the world will see If I’m alive or in a dream state But here I wake Dreaming again Things will get better But it starts with what I could never give I just want to give a fuck Leaving me to rot Leave me here under the tree to rot

The emptiness inside I am my mothers son Clinging to the only thing I’ve ever known The quiet comfort And callous wonder Of the life I have yet to explore Without risk Without riot I sit in flat out silence The crippling anxiety of asking my friends to hang out The awkwardness I feel is so surreal All I’m left with is loneliness I cling to what I know But there’s nothing to show for what I know But the fear of loathing Of myself The waves of sadness it brings If I am set off from my routine I need to get back to it This is my start Sorry for my rambling