It doesn’t matter. What difference would it make. They never listen, so why would that change now ? F*ck it...

Grab whatever you can

It’s the season of thanks

Face the truth

Take who you can ....

You feel the ignition under your vein, a snake worming it’s way into your bloodstream. It pangs with coolness as it hugs you in its blanket and your body trembles backwards, it's almost like you are on a plane looking down as everything society normally hangs over you, turns shapeless and unimportant, you surf the clouds as they lap into each other, un-bothered.

The feeling never lasts, because ...

The heart only grows fonder. I liked her. Enough to loosen the ropes and let her go. But like always, a week after and every breath she takes feels burdensome. A week of borrowed air owed to me. And the only way to pay me is to be smothered in all of her essence. To be acquainted with her again, with every blemish and every little imperfection: Like the wine spill of a birthmark on the dip of her ...

I envy the ones that find sanctuary in religion. I envy their crosses and their Quran. I envy the families that wear their Sunday’s best and the ones that feel the need to wash their feet before praying. I envy the way they speak in absolutes and how it feels like they are elevated above everyday woes. I envy the blissfulness of believing that the world has a true purpose. But what I envy the mos...

I fell in love with the idea of always. Forever seemed like something worth holding onto, until it dawned on me that ‘forever’ died with her and all I had now are forever memories that lingered over every meal and every walk to the park. I even placed my hands over my mouth the last time I allowed myself to chuckle at a dog goofing on the internet. Forever was only a concept before her, but now it...

Red means stop

But that never stopped you

Leaking me,

Poor old me,

I Neva could get no sympathy.

Blue means be loyal

But that isn’t in your nature

Loving me,

Trusting me,

I Neva could get no sympathy.

Yellow means happy

But that was temporary

Breaking me,

Leaving me,

I Neva could get no sympathy.

You built me to break me

Loved me to hate me

Promised loyalty to betray me

Leaking me ,

P...

I knew I’d regret it if I didn’t say it right now, I knew this moment would be a defining moment in my life. If only I could block out who I truly am for what is expected of me.

I swivelled the barstool, stopping only when I saw her.

She walked the lengths of the bar, to the table and chair at the end of the restaurant,in front of a big glass window.

The rain is pouring, and I can hear the cr...

There’s a difference in what you allow to leave your mouth and what you actually think. It’s similar to the spaces between stars. Perception is all dependent on distance. And at close range to my mother when she asks

“how are you doing?”

The outside world hear just that. But what she really means is ‘You better not fuck up my plan for your future!’

Her list of things : A rich husband, three c...

The noise dims down, the alcohol swishes in your belly as you try to balance your scrambled vision. You use the railings to steady yourself .

The music is gone now. Your thoughts return mixing with the drowsy effects of the alcohol. You drop to your knees on the wooden floor of the living room. You close your eyes with so much force that your whole face wrinkles.

You bring your hands to your ...