the absence was painted above dotted with the sparks of love fresh spring grass that laid below the ending not existing and untold

drastic moods lit up the sky quickly before they said goodbye they described each flash of emotion and fleeted without a commotion

the hills adorned throughout with sweet simplistic buds thrown about matched with the colors displayed above a mirroring sensation with a sence of love

the presence of forever is here close enough to hear between the breaths of the breeze listen carefully to hear it plead

“stay” it says between gasps “reep the reward you deserve” it rasps “for only you are gaurenteed the sweet love of eternity

for this is the pleasure of eachothers company forever and ever, as long as you need will you except this love? make your wish to the stars above”

wiped clean was my soul refreshed, renewed, white like snow til’ it’s stained again

it’s a sour feeling when you’re not good enough but can’t help but believing when i say it it the mirror

what’s the point of trying when no one’s keeping score if they did they’d see you dying dying to get the credit you deserve

somehow i always end up as the one the one to depend on somehow that’s what i’ve become but who is there for me to depend on

i’m fine i’m always fine but it’s not really true if someone took the time maybe they’d see what’s inside

what i’ve learned is you can’t rely on any “friendly” concern they’ll revert back to “i”

you yourself and i are your best friend with you until you die no one but yourself can you rely

you played on my heart treated me like a doll someone to use in your game

you stomped on my feelings then told me you loved me it was my fault for believing

love shouldn’t hurt that much love should be two ways love shouldn’t be that hard

i knew before i met you so how did i lose to you somehow you made me forget

forget i was worth more forget the final score me 1 you nothing

i was the final trophy not wife to be treated like a participation prize

i revoked my award rewarded someone who earned it more someone who wasn’t you

who’d mount me on their mantle proudly and respectfully and praise me for just being alive

your arms forever my safe place

your heart beat steady and calming

your presence filling i’m no longer empty

time flies stop i wish it wouldn’t

this moment always ill celebrate it

don’t leave me please don’t go home yet

i was caught in a trance that made me think you loved me i was a puppet made to dance and i thought it was meant to be

i didn’t know how it was supposed to work i didn’t know that love was a two way street

i was caught in your grip and i couldn’t break free i was locked in a cage of my own fake reality

then one fateful day i snapped awake realized my worth and decided i could no longer stay

immediately i felt a burden lifted a weight on my heart suddenly shifted i then felt free to move on my own dance to my own sound that i chose

i refused to accept any new advances i thought it wasn’t worth any more chances that was until i met you you turned my colors bright from blue

you showed me off as you spun me around you let me dance while watching, proud

how could i deserve all this from someone who i’m not even with

i’m flattered without prompt i’m treated like a prize i’m treated like a treasure you’d want to keep for a while

so at least for now i’m enjoying this enjoying your affection enjoying this bliss

i’ll never wonder what would’ve been if i had never awoke never snapped back in

never wonder what would’ve happened if you hadn’t reeled me in

it starts with a mark the dreaded first stroke who knows how it’ll end who knows if you will choke

switch up your colors to make something new keep things exciting express your blues

this artwork in progress is a journey not a race it takes all your time and leaves you with no space

so as your brushstrokes layer and build on eachother remember it’s like the love you felt for one another

starts out timid not sure where to go then suddenly it turns into a raging scene of gold

how did we get here my lover, my friend how did we change things from where we began

our palate was soft it was gentle and kind now it’s turned into colors that blind

they blind me like how i was to our trust they bind me like how i was to our love they dance like how i thought we could be but they paint a different picture of us

one that isn’t as healthy as we once believed one that is more confining then it may have seemed

so as the colors paint the end of our love i want you to know our love was never enough it can’t hide the colors that try to peek through and those colors show the truth about me and you

Eyes like the sea Strong and cunning They can almost speak to me To tell me I’m stunning

Hair like the wind Carless and free Always dancing around Joyful to see me

Built like a mountain Courageous and steadfast Stopping the current Just to let me past

You are a river Controlled yet untamed You help me push through Even though I complain

You are the sun Constant and bright You light up my world So it is never night

You are my world My earth, my everything I’ll love to you to death You’ll do the same for me

Small little love Small little heart Don’t leave me yet Never depart

Small little dreams Find me in them I’ll hold you forever I’ll hold you until the end

Looking up at the night sky It looks the same as when you told me you loved me But that was a lie

This same sky is the one we shared The same one we fell under Back when you cared

I wonder what it would be like If it had all been different Maybe if our destiny had yet to be written

Then we might still be under this same sky In a different world In a different lifetime