_*authors note: it’s not gonna rhyme_

I often wonder if I’ve lost myself,

It probably sounds funny to say it like that.

But it’s true.

I’m sure that I’ve lost myself somewhere,

in the deep parts of me in the last few years.

It’s odd.

Becuase I know a part of me is still there,

but not fully.

And I always try to search deep down inside of me, hoping, praying to just be me again.

And I see...

Eva shakes her legs constantly. _' I can't do this.'_ she thinks to herself.

She glances at the clock her teacher had put on the smart board.

11:25

On 25 more minutes until she would have to submit her test. Only 25 more minutes until her future was sealed. Eva could barely breathe. Flicking her pencil up and down on the desk.

Dop dop dop the pencil makes.

Multiple people kept turning around...

Happiness.


I feel it. I know it’s there.

Yet, it feels like I should be sad. The smile I wear when someone tells a joke
should turn into a frown, showing something deeper.

Sometimes I can’t breathe. It feels like a heavy weight is pressing on my chest,
no matter how hard I push, it stays, stuck like glue.

Everyone around me says I’m pretty and always happy. I smile and say thanks,
but that smil...

_(Authors note: Happy birthday to the co-founder!!)_

I keep hearing it.

The rough knocking of a wooden door.

But there are no doors here…right?

I glance around at the cars theamed birthday party. Little kids running around playing tag. Or trying to take a bite of the hot pink race car cake.

My little brother runs over and tugs on my shirt, “Issac play hide and seek with us!”

I glance behin...

I ran down the dark alleyway, not slowing down despite almost falling over. My lungs screamed in protest and I was sure that my legs were going to fall off any second now. But I kept running. Stopping would be far worse than not.

“Get back here Guardian Walker!” I hear a voice from behind me.

Like hell I’m going to stop, but I couldn’t run forever. I gripped my black bag, it’s now or never. I ...

Bang bang bang!!

If silence had a scent it would smell like copper. That’s what I smelled when I saw Ezekiel fall to the floor in front of me. When the masked assassin dropped the gun and ran away. When after the deafening noise of the gunshots, there was just silence.

The coppery smell enveloped me with a tang of blood. My stomach flipping when I realize it’s Ezekiel’s.

“Oh my God! E. You’re...

(Author’s note: I know this is meant for a poem, but I wanted to make a story anyways <3)

Can you hear me? Because it feels like he doesn’t. I tell my boyfriend that I’m scared. But he just laughs and tells me to relax. That I’m paranoid. That it will never happen again. That I’m safe and I’m loved.

But you weren’t there.

You weren’t there when I was texting ‘I miss you’ at 1:23 am. And then ...

“I still don’t see why I have to do this!” I exclaim.

Oliver looks as me smugly, “You said ANY dare. Are you gonna chicken out?”

I sigh deeply, “Of course not. I never back out of a dare.”

“So then just get it over with already.” He shrugs.

We’ve been doing these dares for months now, even before we were dating we were giving each other dares. But recently these dares have been getting more a...

I slide the bag across the table, the hooded figures

opposite of me peers inside.

“Where the hell did you find this?” The middle one asks.

I shrug and lean back in my chair. I watch as the middle figure reaches inside with gloved hands and takes out the necklace. They inspect it before showing the others. No doubt they are all having a telepathic conversation at the moment but that just makes ...

Joy.

Pure joy.

I'm not sure how long it's been since I've felt that. But I feel it now. And it's real.

I'm not sure how long I've stayed with Jasper. Maybe 2 years. Maybe 3. But that's all it took for him to do his damage on me.

I look at the sky and take a deep breath. I haven't taken a deep, cleansing breath in what feels like forever. I’ve finally done it. I’ve finally left that toxic life ...