Dear Dairy, I am currently laying down on my bathroom floor with you in my lap as I write. Tears create streaks on my face and small bits fall onto you while I struggle to put my words together and try my best not to wet you more.

—- I think I’m stupid sometimes when I speak, soemtimes I come off as too aggressive and too harsh. When I try to come off as much more gentle, I come off as too gentl...

I don’t want to wake up. The feeling of reality pulling me from the sheets of delusions and helpless memories that have never existed makes me so angry that I push and shove and hit and push again. When the hands of reality bring me back I realize that I am not pushing,shoving and hitting air. I am pushing,shoving and hitting someone. Someone who does not enjoy the thought of delusions and consta...

My mom says I should always think with my head first. She says, if you have enough brains everything else in life is easier. Always make the smarter decision instead of pushing it away. Not using your head makes you weak, and using your heart makes you even weaker.

But,Sometimes when I make choices I stop and ponder the thought of using my heart. Of doing what’s right for me, instead of others, o...