It was supposed to be a day of many more to come.
But unbeknownst to me, that I’d be left tased and shocked like a stun gun.
Though a familiar feeling, that was abandonment.
It wasn’t spur of the moment or some fucked up accident.
Pre-mediated Orchestrated emotional dismantlement.
The fire inside dims like the wick of one of your candles lit.
There was a time you were oh so hesitant.
Of allowing ...
Out of the jumpsuit.
Off the prison block.
Form a straight line and follow suit.
Head down ignore the shakedown probably another racial dispute.
The CO in hot pursuit.
Its like a natural birth.
But the chains and cuffs.
Umbilical cord.
Think twice about the meaning of freedom.
You’ve no idea what you’re in for.
Do you feel prepared?
Or are you anxious and scared?
Rewind 20 years,
Remember how ...
Attn: this started as the prompt but turned into something completely different.
7 years old.
I am a seven year old boy.
I love my dad because he gets me new toys.
I hate leaving my toys because I have to be a schoolboy.
School stinks so I sneak in my gameboy.
17 years old
I still have love for my action figures and gameboy.
But I’m older now.
I’m in high school wow.
Time with toys replaced wi...
I won’t sit here and reiterate shit you already know.
See, I don’t know if you’re struggling because you’re not around.
Tears fall in disdain, manifestation of wicked thoughts that I try to reframe.
Enduring the pain.
Crying hysterically trying to refrain.
From teetering on the edge of being level headed or insane.
Nothing is working not even the bumps of cocaine.
Twelve gauge and the couch pillo...
Beneath the surface
I am just a person who has feelings
Beneath the surface
You are just a person who has feelings
Beneath the surface
I realize that the capacity to love me may not be present for you in this moment
Beneath the surface
It’s ok because you are a person who has feelings
Beneath the surface
I do not want to be loved conditionally
Because I too am a person who has feelings
B...
I was thinking about you packing.
I believe you have the right idea.
I sat there and told you about me relapsing.
I get it, you want to face your demons.
Your judgment is clouded, your world collapsing.
You’re letting go a part of your life that I think you may regret.
I hope that you can see it through my lens.
Let me help you redirect.
Loving you should never be in question or doubt.
But you lo...
Bred from the same borough
Most of our lives separated by mere miles
That’s Brooklyn
From different cultures and lifestyles
Both damaged by childhood trauma
I became the addict
You became the target of all its wicked ways
Suffering the fallout of addiction from the ones we were raised
Confidence, self image
Burned and set ablaze
Fast forward to the twilight zone
Yes I mean the literal twil...
Double edged sword of love
Mighty or brittle
Euphoria or psychiatric hospital
Clean and sober
Chase the dragon
Withdrawal when it’s over
Blank stare like a window mannequin
I am my own prison cell
One way street
Self destructive and intrusive thoughts are permanent visitors when they collide and meet
In the box where light can never pierce
Invalidation forces isolation
Ransacked mind for t...
We live in a land where footprints of ghosts linger
We live in a land where neither you nor I can decipher
A soul of the living or ones residing in the umbral
Stuck in the twilight zone, either a social drinker or the one using a breathalyzer
Vast array of choice’s please pick one to succumb to
Ghosts that left tracks
Watch the plungers get pulled back
Eventually they start to form new tracks
Gh...
