I’ve never been to this lake before, I’m not one to be drawn to lakes for no particular purpose. I’m more of an ocean girl, really.
Standing on the dock, I take in the most obvious details. It overlooks the acres of mountain that continues on for miles and right at the mountain head, the thick fog touches and hugs every surface area at the top. This way you can see mountain, and mountain + fog...
Oh, lover
please forgive me.
For
when I look at you,
I can no longer look at you the same.
Your eyes were once so adoring
but they are something
I am no longer faithfully exploring.
I cannot gaze at you
as I have before
but know
you are something I still adore.
I, still
can envision
all the hues in your eyes;
a holy temple to my soul.
Oh,
so lover
forgive me.
...
“Fish only live so long, dear,” my mommy told me. I gulped. I did not like this news, I did not like this news one bit. I did not like that fish had to die so fast. I did not want to see my Goldie die.
“Well, how’s that fair Ma?” I asked between a tear.
“Angie, a lot of things in life aren’t fair. There’s lots of things that aren’t okay. I’m learning to accept things that aren’t okay so th...
You do not know,
What I will not show.
You stand over me,
So you say you see me.
You see my patterns,
So you say you understand me.
You see my colors,
So you say you know me.
You know where I begin,
So you say you know how I am.
You see the sparkling surface,
So you say you see my beauty.
But you’ve seen what’s been showed,
What I’ve allowed.
I do n...
Take time for yourself, they said
Go for a walk, they said
It’s safe, they said
If only they knew the horrors awaiting me
If only they knew the amount of shivering I would endure in deepest part of the forest
If only they knew how it hurt to be aggressively squeezed by the throat
If only they knew how it felt to attempt to breathe in oxygen
If only they knew it would be my last night
M...
Vomit traced my lips,
My reflection was something I would never miss.
My body fatiguing,
inching its way to decay with every breathing minute.
Panic had taken host of my body and the irreplaceable memories haunted my mind,
Was else was there to do? What other option was I left with?
So at night whenever I felt I was without life,
I would channel my emotions into these destructive actions...
My mind became to vibrate. Static buzzing was the intensifying symphony in my ears.
I looked down at my hands, which unusually appeared red in comparison to the rest of my body and were trembling without cease.
I couldn’t glance at my eyes, but I can only imagine how sickening they looked. Pink; no longer white, horrid.
My head started to sway, and the world started tilting me right...
