I couldn’t let go.

Everything you said and did

Stained what I thought we had.

Yet I still cannot go.

The emotional warfare

Is under darkness

With only a gaslight to guide me.

I can’t think about that though.

If I let myself think for a second, you’ll disappear.

All I can feel is scared.

The punishments you have are cruel.

I’d rather bruise and bleed,

Than need to agree that I’m worthless, unstable, insane, hideous…

As you smile at your victory of my silence,

I know I’m a fool.

Something awoke with me at dawn.

A warmer light in this void.

You could see it and wanted to snuff it out.

Then you hit me.

The warmth grew brighter.

Now I have a way out.

Only I can save me.

I can break this bond.

I once was broken.

A shadow of myself.

I wanted to end it all.

Then my soul crawled through a crack

To guide me back to life,

Away from paying two tokens.