Tw: mentions of sh

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I did it again, I overreacted

To something only so small

So small that whatever it was

Is hard to recall

I feel like a horrible person

I don’t know why it made me feel that way

And after all this time

My streak broke today

I can’t tell who I am

I promise I’ve tried

Whether I am me

Or the monster inside

I can’t seem to breathe

The tears covering my face

My ability to keep going is gone

And I have no energy to give chase

My nails dig into my arm

Pulling and starting to scratch

Trying to dig the monster out of me

It’s my life it’s tried to snatch

I can’t feel a thing

Even though my arm is raw red

So is the monster gone

Or is it hanging by a thread

And I soon give up

Leaving the monster be

If it’s really gone

Then it won’t hurt me

It was all an overreaction

The way it made me feel

Was completely irrational

I don’t even know if the monster is real

It could just be me