Learning To Live Again
Everything is so peaceful here. I feel weightless, like I’m floating. All the pain from before is gone, I don’t question it. There’s no point in worrying when everything’s clearly fine. It’s quiet, calm, there’s no stress, no need to rush. I’ve never felt anything like this before. The temperature is perfect, it’s not too dark or bright. Everything is perfect.
So why do I feel as if something is wrong?
Why do I feel, like I’m not supposed to be here?
_Beep….. Beep….. Beep_
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What is that?
My chest feels like it’s being pressed down on.
_Lexi?_
What’s going on?
_Beep….. Beep_
Why does everything feel so heavy?
_Her fingers just twitched!_
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What is that voice?
_Beep…Beep…Beep _
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Why does everything hurt!?
No.
NO!
**NO!!**
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**_Beep….
Beep….
_**_“Lexi? Can you hear me?_
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_Come on Lexi. Everyone misses you. I miss you…_
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_Please… I…. I can’t live without my best friend Lexi.”_
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That’s Lilly’s voice. Why does she sound so sad?
I need to get to her. If she’s showing that much sadness, it has to be serious. I just need to get to her.
The light is too bright, everything is too loud. There’s something covering everything below my chest. _Why does everything hurt? Why does it all feel so stiff? It’s like I haven’t moved in days._
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“Lexi?”
I open my eyes to see Lilly sitting next to me. Her soft chestnut brown hair, her sweet, chocolate eyes. She looks so tired. I manage to give her a small smile, it’s little, and weak, but it’s something.
I feel relief as she smiles back before quickly pulling me into a gentle, yet tight embrace.
As we sit there, with tears streaming down her face, I can’t help but feel like there’s something important that happened. I don’t quite know what it is, but I have a feeling that it’s how I ended up in the hospital.
Just as I decide to push it out of my mind for now, I hear a voice in the back of my mind. It’s cold, and haunting in a way that’s indescribable. But it’s definitely a woman.
_“Enjoy your time now. You can’t outrun me or your destiny forever dear. It’s only a matter of time until we’ll see each other again.”_