I’m so tired

you don’t seem to notice,

you don’t seem to care.

you dont accept the pain

left me to stand alone in this rain.

nothing to lose

nothing to gain…

im so tired…

the memories haunt every day

its the price i have to pay.

no one understands me,

they cant just let me be …

you made me this monster

but dont want to answer

for all the things you did wrong.

im so tired….

You broke my soul

took away my only goal;

the goal to live life..

now spending it in overdrive

im so tired…

when do you plan on telling them

how you ruined a perfect gem..

all these scars

all these emotions locked in jars…

wishing to be hit by passing cars

when will you admit what you’ve done?

thinking you’ve won

but this has only just begun..

left me to be loved by no one.

I’m so tired…

of keeping all of this inside

wishing I had someone by my side

You’ve ruined anything good that could’ve been

where do I even begin?

I just can’t win

keep waiting for someone to tap-in…

and save me from where I have been

im so tired…

You have wrecked so much more

left me broken and torn

My childlike spirit that never got to experienced life

stabs me so deep in my heart like a knife.

All this built up trauma

burns me up like a hot sauna..

im so tired…

wishing back my innocence

that isn’t marked by your filthy consequence

I was but only a child

but what you did was wild.

it took away my smile

I would walk half a mile

even just for a while

to espcape your mild…

actions.

im so tired…

You touched me inappropriately

i bet to you it felt gloriously.

i was your sister

but that didnt stop you from pulling down your zipper.

all of that hgas made me so bitter

treated like the runt of the litter.

I’m so tired….

of thinking about how you’d abuse

and also use

all of what was me

Remebering how i was your punching bag

what a major red flag..

Body stained with bruises

I was always on the side that loses.

soul tainted with what you did.

body stained and wishing to get rid..

of everything you did

im so tired..

i did not deserve this.

wishing for eternal bliss..

you have scared me for everything in this world

left me bloody and curled

I was but only a babygirl

you have left me in a swirl…

im so tired…

i dint think I can carry this with me anymore

Please let me walk out this door

and live everemore…

with death by my side

leave me to the tide..

to become death’s bride.