They say that time heals the worst of wounds, but I've never found this to be true

Because I know they have never lost someone like you.

How could anyone let go of you and your grace?

How could anyone not smile when they look at your face?

I think about the times we spent together, both good and bad

I know deep in my heart that you were the best I ever had.

"Just let him go"

That's all they'd say...

A pressure to be perfect.

Looks don’t matter.

Feelings dont matter.

The satisfaction of getting an opportunity.

If I cant be like you, im a faliure.

Getting a B, is like losing a part of me.

I’ve failed.

Getting a 90%?

Not good enough.

Why cant I be like my brother.

I wish grownups understood.

I wish I could enjoy my life.

All I have to worry about is getting good grades.

Seems like an impossible...

Every time I try, the chains hold me down. Suffocating me, not allowing me to reach the light. The darkness consumes me. The temptations, I’m held in the dark. No escape....

Days go by and not one is about you. The way you would press your hand against mine ever so gently yet so pitifully, oh I how I wish for it to never had happened. Forgetting is tough but so is forgiveness always so fast to play the victim yet always so slow to see to see how I felt. Oh how the days so slowly fall to the ground like the petals off of a dying rose knowing it was gonna end yet I stil...

I’m

Tired

Of holding on to something that’s destroying me

It’s time to let my pride go and set me free

I don’t wanna wait another

Day

I’ve waited long enough

I can finally see the sun coming up

I’ve been in the shadows for too long

I’m grateful God showed me the light

I’ve been distant my whole

But I’m

Done

Running from you

Spent my whole life in these chains

Afraid

Of who I’d be wi...

I’ve given up

I’ve had enough I try break just end up

In the same place I was last month

Like

Like a ringtone on repeat

These drugs got me in a hot a seat

Mixing laced pills with spiked drinks

Twisted tea mixed with morphine

It’s same cycle

I break free just too repeat

Repeat

Repeat

Repeat

Repeat

Party with my demons in the backseat

This cycle is a endless repeat

Repea...

Sleeping in until 11.

Falling asleep for two hours in a loud room.

Drifting off,

Slumping down,

Sinking away,

away,

away.

I’m just so _tired_.

Tired of being awake, yes.

But also tired of putting on this ridiculous facade that “I’m fine.”

Tired of dancing in a never ending masquerade of so called “happiness.”

Tired of convincing mysel...

I’m giving up

and maybe there’s hope in that.

That i’ve done all i can here

I’ve failed

And that’s freeing

No longer perfect

no longer the best

I can do what i do without expectations of grandeur

I’ve failed

Finally

This was all i’ve got

I guess i’m all done

I’m giving up

And maybe there’s hope in that

Because now that i’ve passed

What else can bloom?...

I fell for you

Your eyes

Your lips

Your body

Your sent

Your soul

Your heart

I fell for you

Your lies

The pain you caused

I fell for you once

Then many times over

Kept believing it would get better

You would change

I kept going back

Knowing my love for you never stopped

Knowing it was deeper than seas

Deeper than the forest

But you always left

After I knew it was over

I knew it w...

Mum.

why couldn’t you have been the mum I needed.

Why couldn’t have you loved and cared for me like one mothers should.

Instead I am getting the love you never gave me from another person mother. Im getting the care and kindness and the teachings of how to deal with boys and how to do my makeup and when my mental health is bad that I can talk about it and get help.

You only taught me one thing i...