(Tw: SH)

I want to destroy

Myself.

I want to skip assignments

Until I have awful grades.

I want to cut myself

Until I hurt.

I want to rip out my hairs one by one

Just so people will see someone else.

I want to follow the normality

Then glitch the fucking game.

Do you know why I cut myself?

Not because I think I deserve it.

I’m past the point of knowing exactly who I am.

I used to think that I was a bad person

Then I joined this app and for a while

I thought I was decent

Worthy

Good.

Now, I have no idea

I’m just human

And I’m so tired.

It’s funny

That the moment I fall

All my friends seem too

As well

Maybe they’d be better off

Without me.

I cut because I’m flying through time and space

At the speed of light

And that pain

Is the only thing tethering me to reality

So I don’t just blow away

Like seeds from a dandelion.

That pain is real, and so

In return

I am real.