Am I Human?
There is nobody here
To watch me break down
I’m completely alone
With nobody to run too
I look at you with tears in my eyes
Begging you
To understand me
But how could you
It’s not your fault
It’s not anyone’s fault
It’s all in my head
After all
I would try to explain
To you
But I refuse to breakdown
In front of you
Now I’m yelling at you
Angry for no reason
At least no reason
That you can see
But little do you know
How little sleep I get
Tossing and turning
Paralyzed with numb
The only relief
Is when I do cry
Proving to myself
That I am still human
Human is a funny thing
We’re supposed to be
So many things
Yet we’re so different
One makes living
Look easy
Another is relying on drugs
To feel anything
Maybe I’m not meant
To be living in this world
Sometimes I wonder
If anyone would miss me
Those nights
Where I’m paralyzed
Numb to the world
I pray for an end
An end to this life
That I know I can not find
Never to find
A genuine smile or laugh
It’s been so long
Since I’ve seen the light
Maybe it hasn’t actually been long
But time has never passed so slowly