Right now,

There is nothing left for me to feel.

Grief is a funny thing.

I don’t know what it will do to me,

And I can’t help but feel I’m not doing it right.

I haven’t known life without her.

I guess a life without her is the one I live now.

I saw her for the last time today.

I wonder when I will understand that.

I don’t understand how life moves on.

I don’t want to move on.

I want to hold on.

I replay the memories over and over in my head.

When will it hit me that I can no longer make new ones?

That that was the last time,

The final time…

I deny and I deny,

Or I cry and I cry.

I have nothing left to give right now,

Because I gave all my heart to her.