I messed up again

Isn't it lovely to the dark,

Inconsiderate to the light.

I mean, how did I get here

In one moment I'm laughing,

In an instant, I'm back.

In what world is that sane?

Is this normal or what?

Instructions anyone?

I'm starting out.

Is anyone hiring?

(I say sarcastically)

I guess this is what failure feels like.

I know this is what failure feels like.

In this moment I want to crawl,

Into a compacted ball.

Illuminating what I want to be seen by.

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I'm ashamed

I'd be lying for the plot if things ended there.

I was down

I felt wrong for what I put you through.

In that moment you were hurt but you still said,

I Quote “Sit with me for a little while”

I'm happy since that day, Jesus held my hand.