Back to sleepless nights

Back to not feeling

Back to suffering

Back to hot showers after cutting

Back to nothing can cure me

Back to blasting music so I can’t hear myself

Back to wishing it could end

Back to blank looks

Back to ceiling stares

Back to faking

Back to no showers

Back to hiding it from myself

Back to braclets

Back to hoodies

Back to bandaids

Back to not telling anyone

Back to quiet is loud

Back to horror at night

Back to monsters and rockstars

Back to 5 hour energy’s

Back to not okay

But I was so happy

Just a week ago

I was so happy

What happend?