Hi my name Is Alana (she/he/they) I love writing poems and story’s I play guitar (acoustic and electric), a lot of my poems are about an old friend who was kinda a bitch to me, :)
Hi my name Is Alana (she/he/they) I love writing poems and story’s I play guitar (acoustic and electric), a lot of my poems are about an old friend who was kinda a bitch to me, :)
Back to sleepless nights Back to not feeling Back to suffering Back to hot showers after cutting Back to nothing can cure me Back to blasting music so I can’t hear myself Back to wishing it could end Back to blank looks Back to ceiling stares Back to faking Back to no showers Back to hiding it from myself Back to braclets Back to hoodies Back to bandaids Back to not telling anyone Back to quiet is loud Back to horror at night Back to monsters and rockstars Back to 5 hour energy’s Back to not okay But I was so happy Just a week ago I was so happy What happend?
2 months of rebound 2 months of kiss and don’t tell 2 months of I love you’s 2 months of punching me 2 months of guilt tripping 2 months of being used so I could feel validated and loved 2 months of defending you 2 months of being your only help 2 months of pain. That’s not that bad because now there are things that will last forever 1 forever of me being wrong 1 forever of thinking this is okay 1 forever of remembering 1 forever of rumors 1 forever of “———‘s ex” 1 forever of the things you hated about me 1 forever isn’t enough time to go on and on about how you need to take some time for yourself.
All I imagine Is you and me under a willow tree Sitting alone Watching the tone The tone of the earth The grass swaying in the wind The tree branches singing to us The picnic blanket flying up with every breeze And you look at me and smile And I look at you and smile and that’s when I realize everything might turn out okay
Just wondering why the same fucking day Not that I care but you aren’t okay You said that you loved me and put up fight Then there I see you Talking to your ex Making her talk to me Saying you are gonna shoot me Not that I care but you aren’t okay Just wondering why the same fucking day
Just saying, I have moved on completely.
I’m pushing you out of my life I just simply don’t want you in it It’s not personal I mean a little bit I did like you don’t get me wrong I feel free now Free like the waves on a beach Free like the sand on your feet Free like the wind in your hair I never wanted to care I never wanted to feel I never wanted to heal But look at me Now I’m here 15 days Almost 16 So exited for the things I can do Now that im finally clean
I hate it I hate it I got so far I didn’t mean to I wanna go back I don’t want to do it anymore Stop I wanna go back No stop please stop I don’t want to. Its over… I did it… Didn’t hurt… Put it in my app… A whole week I was so proud Doesn’t matter anyway Nothing does now Especially me. 🤷♀️
